My Story of heart Break
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My Story of heart Break
| Fri, 09-10-2004 - 1:19pm |
First off, my x-boyfriend and I had been together for 4 years and some months. and just yerstday we broke it off. Well for the last couple of months i've been suspecting him of cheating on me and I follow my gut instinct on most things.. I found phone numbers of girls in his cellphone that he had called and that had called him.. One of his first signs of cheatng was when he was suppose to be sleep one day, i just thought I would check and see if he was in fact sleeping and he wasn't he had left the house his father told me that he was not home. Well i tried to call him and his cellphone was also turned off.. When confronting him about this he told me that he couldnt sleep so he just decided to go to apply for this job, this was on a sunday, and most HR offices are not open on sundays so that set in me wondering whether or not he was telling me the truth, but I wanted to trust him so I let it go...Well as time goes on he has more and more calls coming to his cellphone while he is with me and everyone that calls he says he doesn't know who it is and that he's not going to answer it.. This goes on for months and when I told him I was having worry about his behavior he told me not to worry he would never do anything to hurt me... Next he writes me an email saying that he is attracted to other women but that he doesn't want to break up. So everything just building up inside of me.. I sat and had a talk with him.. I told him.. I know that you want to see other women and I know that if we don't break this off that your going to cheat on me (because he has before about 1 year into the relationship and i forgave him...). I want to know what do you want to do? Do you want to end our relationship and see other people? He goes through this whole crying phase, and tells me he doesnt know how he could ever live with out me, but that he would like to open our relationship up to see other people, but he doesnt want to lose me and that infact he is interested in a couple of women at his work. He also says he knows for sure that he will want to get back together soon he just wants to play for awhile.. and i told him well I cant tell you what the future will hold but i can't promise that we will get back together but that we could definitly be friends but you gotta give me time to heal. This was really my first serious relationship as well as the longest and he is also the first man I gave myself to.. He says well lets give it a month and I said no, and he says well I wanna get back with you soon, so basically he calls this moring and starts talking like normal calling me baby and what not and I'm feeling like crap because of yerterday,I tell him you cant just keep calling me like all things are normal, I dont know what you feel like but I feel bad and he says be strong we will be back together.. ....and now I feel really wierd because he knows that I love him, and I want to be with him but, I just think if we get back together its going to be the same thing.. I feel like he still trying to have his cake and eat it too, but on the other hand I feel like well when and or if he does come back what if he has changed? I dont know what to do any advice would be apperciated.... there is a little bit of age difference I'm 26 almost 27 and he is 24 Lynn

broke up with me a month ago. If you need someone to talk to
let me know. I think you are right, it sounds like he wants his cake
and eat it to. Chances are he will never change, and would you
really want him back after he has been seeing other girls.
Hope I can help.