My thoughts and thanks to all
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My thoughts and thanks to all
| Wed, 09-14-2005 - 10:36am |
I have been on these boards since December 2004. That is when it all started with me. Bf and I had been together for 6 1/2 years and he left. He was back within 3 weeks and then on Feb 22nd left again. That time we stayed apart for 6 weeks and ended up getting back together again. Well this past Sunday he left again. The past 2 times I was so devestated for the loss of our relationship. We never fought we got along and generally had a good relationship but we wanted different things in life you see he was 19 years younger than I. I always in the past had thought that with as much as we loved each other we would work thru our issues and make it but I also on the other had felt we had no future to build on. I actually feel ok with the break up this time. I greeved for the loss the last time we broke up. I became very depressed, lonely and sad. I am not going to let that happen again. I have learned so much from these board and feel that it has helped me a lot. I know once he comes and gets the rest of his stuff that I will start no contact this time. I am changing cell phones so he wont be able to call and I wont be waiting for him to call. Before he was calling every 5 days or so to check up and I think that drug us back together even thou we were not meant to be. There comes a time where you need to just let go. I am putting my trust in god knowing that there are reasons for this and that there is someone out there better for me that I can build a future with but right now I need to think about myself, my goals and not worry about what he is doing. We will both land on our feet and everything will be ok. I feel a little tug at my heart I wont lie but not like it was ripped out and stomped on like before. I am not angry at all for him leaving. Last time I was very angry. I hold no anger no resentment. I just want to consintrate on me and getting my life where it needs to be. I hope that I can continue to feel this way and thanks to everyone that has given great advise.....

Things get so much better when you're able to just let go!
Good luck!!!