NC... Making me sad today
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NC... Making me sad today
| Sat, 12-31-2005 - 6:27pm |
It has been 17 days today since I last talked in person to my exbf, and 15 days since I sent him a "letting go" email. At first I was proud of all the little X's on my calendar, now today looking at it just makes me sad that I haven't spoken to him in so long. The email I sent him was long but not angry, it was about a "lightening bulb" moment I had where I realized I had to move on and asked him to not contact me. I told him I wasn't giving up on the idea that we could one day be friends, but that that day was a distant one at best. I told him I was letting him go and wished him much happiness in the future. I kind of gave him my 2cents worth regarding his new relationship, and told him I hoped he didn't get angry or feel bitter towards me for sharing my thoughts. He responded with a brief emai telling me he feels no anger or bitterness towards me. Also that he will miss me and that I am a wonderful person who should be with someone that can treat me with the love and respect that I deserve. He mentioned keeping in touch with me via email on occasion, but so far he hasn't.
Most days I am dealing with this without major problems, but today not coping well. Any input would be appreciated.
Most days I am dealing with this without major problems, but today not coping well. Any input would be appreciated.

Oh I can definitely relate to your situation. It's funny how one day we can accept what happened and the next we long for contact more than anything. But you have to be strong!! It's really hard but its the best way to go about things. You're very fortunate to have ended things well, unfortunately however that doesn't lessen the pain. We're going to have our highs and our lows, just know that it will get better with time. And there is the possibility of you two being friends in the future (when there are NO potential romantic feelings involved). You're situation sounds very similar to mine, even the emails and his response are along the lines of my ex's. I hope you feel a lot better soon:)
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