Newbie..Broke up DD Father Monday Night
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| Fri, 07-01-2005 - 11:21am |
Hello Everyone,
I hope everyone is dealing with their breakups as best possible and trying to move on. I just broke up with my child's father Monday night. My ex and I were together for 2 years. Just to give you a run down of what he has put me through. He has broken up with me twice before. The 1st time he came running back after 3 days saying he missed me. He asked me to marry him 2 months later in February '04. Shortly after that I got pg. When I was 11 weeks pg he broke up with me for the 2nd time saying he didn't see a future between us. That devastated me. I was carrying his future in my belly but he wanted to go in a different direction. I pretty much went through the pg alone he came around every now and then. While I was trying to keep my sanity and prepare for being a single mother, my ex was off trying to meet women and going out on dates. In to my 11 month of pg, my ex sends me this long email about how he has made a terrible mistake. He loves me and the baby and wants us to be a family. I like a fool give in and take him back. We welcomed our daughter last December and I moved back in with him a month later.
I'm thinking everything is cool. He had just got on as a new police officer and started working 12 hour shifts. He convinced me that everyweek he needed to go play cards with the other cops b/c it would give him a chance to fit in with them. I like a jackass don't say anything even though I felt like he should have been more focused on bonding with me and the baby. Well suddenly I starte getting a bad feeling. I just knew something wasn't right. I checked his cell phone last month and discovered a message from another female officer saying how horny she was and how she had enjoyed him so the last time they were together. That selfish SOB had cheated on me after everything we went through.
I kicked him out and a week later he's telling me he made a mistake yet again. This guy is good b/c he somehow got me to give it another try for the sake of our daughter. He said he would not cheat again...yadda yadda yadda.
Ladies for the past month I've tried put it behind me and move forward but Monday was my breaking point. He didn't even do anything bad for me to just up and flip out on him. I asked him a question and he answered in a smart tone that just made me realize this guy doesn't love or respect me and he never will. I went off on him telling him how much he has hurt me and our child. I told him I've had it with his selfishness and how he only thinks about what he wants and feels. The way he has treated me like crap is beyond low. I told him I am the mother of his child and deserve a hell of a lot better. You'd think he would have apologized but this guy played it all cool like he didn't give a darn and said it didn't matter to him if we were together or not. He said he only got back together with me b/c he didn't want me to take away our daughter. What a selfish prick? I told him I'm done and he could go screw everything in sight. He gave me the thumbs up and cocky look like he was telling me thanks for finally getting the hint.
That was it for me. I got up walked over to him and spit directly in his face and called him a piece of sh*t. Well that sure got an emotion out of him. He jumped up and started charging towards me with a fist. He came to his senses and stopped. Oh if he had hit me his days as a cop would have been over. I told him "what you don't like being spit on, well I don't like being used and treated like a whore." He got in his car and sped off. I haven't seen or heard from him since. Call me crazy but I actually feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I'm a little sad that I trusted a man who didn't give a crap about me but one day I will forgive myself and hopefully some man will truly love me and my daughter and be there for us the way a real man should be.
Sorry for the long post but I just wanted to share with everyone how I'm dealing with my breakup so far. I know spitting on someone is one of the lowest things you can do but I feel some much better. Tee Hee!!!
Take Care,
Alison
