this night has been impossible
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this night has been impossible
| Sat, 12-29-2007 - 9:00am |
I have been up since 4:30 am watching the clock. I felt so terrible i actually almost called him at 4:30 (but i didn't). Now i is 9, and i feel like texting him to call me. this is so bad. I am not doing it but its hard. I know reason wont work right now. i keep thinking if i speak with him, he will say yes, its been hard, i do miss you. and the reality is he wont say that. It has been a week now. exactly. my chest hurts and my heart physically aches.

Been there...still there....They always give us some hope...and really they aren't saying anything promising.
We are imagining the hopeful words.