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| Sat, 06-16-2007 - 3:10pm |
Have you ever made the experience that you have ended up doing something you didn't even wanted to start or something of which you were absolutely sure it would not be working out as you wished it to do?
That during a difficult period of time, which you could end with ease, you are the one who thinks that everything gets well in the end?
And that finally YOU are the one who wakes up one morning, suddenly being aware of the fact that you have been the biggest fool ever?
If all your answers are positive, welcome to the club.
When I began dating my present boyfriend I was sure that we could never have a proper relationship, but everytime he asked me for a date I thought that our conversations would become better. When our relationship started all of a sudden, as his best friend asked me how long our relationship had already been going HE answered that there were no real date, I just thought "Ok, you can end this whenever you want to."
When I got aware of several problems he had to deal with I thought I couldn't leave him alone.
All his friends told me what he great guy he would be and he really was – when we were in public. Just with the two of us, he was rude to me, always in a bad mood, boring.
I prepared myself to break up with him several times – but I never did.
But now, after our conversations didn't improve and he still seems like a stranger to me sometimes, after he forgot about my birthday, after I helped him solving his problems with absolutely no little sign of gratitude in exchange, after I got aware of the fact that his lifestyle consists of meeting his friends at the sports club, drinking beer and watching Tv and particularly after this evening on which I have to stay at home again, what I had to do the last few days because I went down with an illness, and he does not even propose to show up (I would let him be with his friends, that's out of question, I just want to get a little sign that he cares about me) I want to break up.
I got aware of the fact that I was a fool, that I should never ever had thought that everything will be alright one day.
But there's still one thing I can't figure out properly. There are so many men I know who have girlfrieds that start a quarrel because of nothing, that make up rules here and there and all these couples doesn't seem to have any real problems at all!
And I'm the one who never did something like that, is it that making me a fool?
I know that this text is not that thrilling but I just needed to share my thoughts.
Please excuse my English as it's not my mother's tongue.

Welcome to the board jessy_ca,
::There are so many men I know who have girlfrieds that start a quarrel because of nothing, that make up rules here and there and all these couples doesn't seem to have any real problems at all!
And I'm the one who never did something like that, is it that making me a fool?
No that doesn't make you a fool.
You went along with something because ?
....."There are so many men I know who have girlfrieds that start a quarrel because of nothing, that make up rules here and there and all these couples doesn't seem to have any real problems at all!".....
That's the trick, they *seem* to be. By your own admission, everyone thinks you and your boyfriend are the perfect couple, but they don't know what goes on behind your closed door, the rudeness, moodiness, the boredom, the uncaring attitude. So don't think that just because other people can also put on the public mask means they're happier. Do what's best for you.
Good luck,