pardon me while I scream.....
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pardon me while I scream.....
| Sun, 08-08-2004 - 8:33pm |
My mind is constantly racing with "what ifs" and "why's" and "what can i do" that i need to just scream. i cant even sleep well anymore (and i am good at sleeping). there is so much i want to ask him and talk to him about but i am afraid bringing thigs up will only push him away. So instead they are stuck in my head. My mind sounds like a crowded bar on a friday night. Things actually seem better but I am so afraid that its going to come crashing down on me.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

In short, what ended up happening was we had a long talk, a dinner the next night, and decided the split was wrong, very pre-mature, and he admitted to being an idiot.
What happened between my man and I is likely very different than for you, but your emotions sounded like mine. And that kind of frestration was, for me, for lack of reason and rationality as to the 'breakup.'
On the other hand, if I am completely off base - then go ahead, SCREAM your head off.
hope this helps.
HONESTLY, when I contacted him, I was didn't expect us getting back together. I was miserable and frestrated, but after the time apart, I just wanted some sort of believable explanation/closure because the premise of our 'breakup' was so absurd to me. The minute he answered the phone, he started to open up and say he missed me so much and that we need to talk because he was so sorry and wrong and wanted to see about making it all up and making us work.
IF I didn't believe in my heart, that this man was the man for me, for good, I would NEVER have agreed to talk - but I do.
Give it time with your Mr. guy and really think about your relationship. How Long were you together anyways?
There is hope for those couples who really should be together. U can get more of my story by looking at past posts by my screen name here.
Best ;)
Should you two really belong together, that will become apparant with a little space and relaxation.
There is total hope and I wish you the best!