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| Thu, 06-02-2005 - 2:55pm |
Hi - I'm having a really difficult day today. It's weird but yesterday seemed less difficult..I thought this was supposed to get better each day : ( Help! Please reassure me time will heal this...it so doesn't feel like anything is going to heal my heart now or ever. I feel so weak and can't believe how I've fallen apart. It's just so damn hard to get through the day without spending it thinking about him and wondering WHY???

I'm sort of hiding out at these boards today because it's a soft place to be. I'm guessing I'll snap out this soon and start to smile again. I bet you will too. Sending you hugs, to get thru your day...
Eating a Hershey bar and listening to Carly Simon "your so vain" with a little smirk on my face, (they all think that song is about them lol)
Grace
Yeah, I'm having a downer couple of days myself. I can go long periods within the day without obsessing about him and our breakup, but if i let my mind go idle, it starts all over again. I know how you feel.
Everytime I start to ask myself "Why"? I remember all the things that led to our break up. I remind myself that it wasn't me who gave up, it was him. I tell myself that he isn't any good for me right now, if ever. He has chosen his path and now I have to follow mine.As much as I would love to follow him forever, I know it won't get me anywhere.
-adc
-almostdoesntcount
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Sorry to hear you are having a bad day. Unfortunately it doesn't get better everyday - some days are good and some are awful. I went through the same thing, and it didn't make sense to me either. I guess that's just how emotions are. Unpredictable. Eventually you will have more good days than bad and you will realize you ARE getting over him, and even that realization could send me into a funk because if I was getting over him, then he was getting over me too. It's all crazy.
One thing that really helps is no contact. I have learned the hard way that all that does is set you back on the healing process. None of this "let's be friends" crap - at least until you are really over him and happy with someone else. And I imagine by that time you won't miss him or his friendship at all.
One other thing that helped me was to write emails to myself, and to him (but don't send it!). The one I wrote to myself was a reminder of all the things he did to hurt me and everything about him that would have made life difficult with him. The one I wrote to him was angry - telling him all the things that he did wrong, and outlining all his problems. Fortunately, with my ex, I had plenty of material for both. Even if you think your ex is fabulous and has no issues or problems, I guarantee you can find something - probably a lot of things. I saved these emails and read them when I am feeling weak or sad. It doesn't take away the hurt, but it does remind me that he wasn't the best guy to walk the planet and I deserve much better - and so do you.
Trust that it will get better - if it didn't the whole world would be walking around miserable!