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pian ful
| Fri, 07-27-2007 - 12:00am |
Right now i feel very hurt so i'm just looking for advice on how to deal with this type of situation:
After being together 2 yrs my bf john proposed to me and shorty after we moved to florida from NY. Only a few months later my mom had a stroke so we both went back to ny. From the stroke they fround out that my mom had cancer. We both stayed in Ny for like 4 months but john had to go back to florida for school. So i stayed in Ny b/c my mom was still very sick and i would not feel right leaving her. John and I decided we would try a long distance relationship and when he was done with school, in 6 months, we woould see how my mom was and where we would stay. But let me tell u john was not complety there for me when my mom was sick he when back to florida twice during that time, and never came to the hospital with me cus my mom had said to him she didnt think it was the right thing for us to move away. And he would always make thing worse for me like do something that would upset me when i didnt need the extra stress. I know it was probably wrong to stay with him but I loved john and I really didnt want to be alone at this time. The distance thing was really hard. About 3 months into it I booked a trip to come and see him, which he begged me to do. 2 weeks after that he tells me that he can't do it anymore the talking on the phone and everything its just too hard for him. So we broke up. I was so hurt. 2 weeks after that I see on myspace that he had a girlfriend even b4 we broke up, and b4 i brought my plane tickets to see him. Now its like 3 months later and I saw that they r having and baby together. shes 18 and hes 22. And she has a picture up holding the pregnancy test all pround. I just feel so hurt. I hurts me so bad to see the pictures of them together all happy. I dunno how he gets to be with someone and be happy so soon. Meanwhile i'm still alone and hurt. I just tried to do the right thing by staying with my mom who is doing a lot better now. I was always faithful to him. But it feel like its soo unfair. He lied to me told me to come and visit him. Y does he get to be happy? How do i stop feeling jealous of what they have? How could he propose to me but leave me for the 1st girl that gives him a chace? I just feel so hurt and don't kno what to do about it.
After being together 2 yrs my bf john proposed to me and shorty after we moved to florida from NY. Only a few months later my mom had a stroke so we both went back to ny. From the stroke they fround out that my mom had cancer. We both stayed in Ny for like 4 months but john had to go back to florida for school. So i stayed in Ny b/c my mom was still very sick and i would not feel right leaving her. John and I decided we would try a long distance relationship and when he was done with school, in 6 months, we woould see how my mom was and where we would stay. But let me tell u john was not complety there for me when my mom was sick he when back to florida twice during that time, and never came to the hospital with me cus my mom had said to him she didnt think it was the right thing for us to move away. And he would always make thing worse for me like do something that would upset me when i didnt need the extra stress. I know it was probably wrong to stay with him but I loved john and I really didnt want to be alone at this time. The distance thing was really hard. About 3 months into it I booked a trip to come and see him, which he begged me to do. 2 weeks after that he tells me that he can't do it anymore the talking on the phone and everything its just too hard for him. So we broke up. I was so hurt. 2 weeks after that I see on myspace that he had a girlfriend even b4 we broke up, and b4 i brought my plane tickets to see him. Now its like 3 months later and I saw that they r having and baby together. shes 18 and hes 22. And she has a picture up holding the pregnancy test all pround. I just feel so hurt. I hurts me so bad to see the pictures of them together all happy. I dunno how he gets to be with someone and be happy so soon. Meanwhile i'm still alone and hurt. I just tried to do the right thing by staying with my mom who is doing a lot better now. I was always faithful to him. But it feel like its soo unfair. He lied to me told me to come and visit him. Y does he get to be happy? How do i stop feeling jealous of what they have? How could he propose to me but leave me for the 1st girl that gives him a chace? I just feel so hurt and don't kno what to do about it.

Honestly, it stinks and I understand your pain (at least partially). I waited faithfully for my ex while he was off entertaining girl after girl on his holiday. Seems to mess with your sense of fairplay.
There's the general advice, kick him off your myspace page and stop torturing yourself with them. You need to start working on yourself. For the first few days, every time I felt awful I went out and ran a few laps. Endorphins fix everything. Else just keep yourself busy. But most of all, don't resent your mom, which I anticipate you might be tempted to do.
This probrably isn't comforting (it wasn't when I first broke up), but it's better to break up with a boyfriend than with a husband. In the long run, you'll look back and see that a guy who can't stick it out for one lousy year and support you through your crisis is probrably not the best choice for a husband. You guys haven't even hit the tough stuff and he's already taken off. See it as a lesson well learned. Take comfort in knowing you did the right thing sticking with your mom.
Cheers.
Izzy5555,
You have every right to be hurt and upset.