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| Sat, 01-13-2007 - 9:47pm |
There's this guy that i am in love with. We'av been through soo much togeather. Even though i am young, i know for a fact im in love; and i would do anything for him. We have been dating for about 2 years now, but talking on and off for 3 and a half. I was a virgin when we met, and had no experience with the opposite sex at all. He taught me soo much. We grew to be madly in love, and both always said it would never end. I recently did something very minor that he disaproves of with another person (i cant blame him) and i think that trigggered him to end our relashonship. For the past 3 days i have been utterly miserable, and i barely talk to anyone. I already missed school once. All i want to do is work out, sleep and cry. I CANT STOP CRYING. He meant everything to me, and still does. He told me that he had been feeling like we had been drifting apart for a while now, but i was too blind to see it, and that this recent incident made everything worse. He broke up with me on January 11. None of my so called "friends" really even care...In fact two of them are over at his house at this very moment hanging out with him and his friends. It hurts me even more to know that not only have i lost my one ture love, i am also completely alone. Ive thought about suicide many many times, but something keeps telling me that theres a slight chance of getting him back. He broke up with me because he said "Whatever we had is just gone...im really sorry" I highly doubt that its another girl...There really wouldnt be a reason for that because even me being so "blind" could tell that he loved only me. Right now my best friends friend is dating my ex's best friend, so thats why there over there now. SELFISH SLUTS if you ask me. Anyways, thats not the point. The point is that i would do anything to get him back, but im scared it will happen all over agian because hes not in love with me anymore. Before you say anything, I dont think i could get over him. Theres a permanant hole in my heart that will never be filled. Whatever i do i will never win, so i dont even know why i am typing this, but if you have any advice or just want to cry with me, ;[ then help if you can.
ps. One thing i have learned through this is that sex does just complicates things. It seems like after i did first lose my virginity to him, everything was extremely different. I just wanted to prove to him that i do love him. And i really do. I love him with all my heart.

I would suggest writing a long letter to him, get your thoughts and feelings out. Wait a few days before sending it -- you may find out that after a few days you don't want to send it to him after all. If you do send it to him, the next move is his. Whatever he does from then on you will have to accept. Another reason for writing this letter is for you to sort out your feelings versus keeping everything bottled up inside eating you up.
Believe it or not, you will get over this. It will take time and there will be ups and downs, but no matter what, you have to move forward. Your ex has already made a decision that he doesn't want to be with you. If YOU try to change his mind and for some reason he decides to come back, more than likely, he'll be gone again. If he wants to be with you, he would be with you.
You're not alone...so many people go through very bad breakups, get through it, and find someone else that makes them happy and/or happier. You will, too! Just give it time.
Thats weird you say to write a letter to him. Before i discovered this site, and set up my account, i already had written almost three pages of the first time we met, and everyting we have been through. I even planned on giving it to him like a letter. And it makes so much sense what you said about if he wanted to be with me he would be, and i cant make him. Thank you so much.
ps. Any suggestions about my "friends"? Because they are friends with him, and talk to him and his friends constantly, there really is no avoiding seeing him or thinking about him. Which is bad because when he even enters my mind in the slightest, i break down. Maybe i should just stop hanging out with them? They are not true friends anyways. And what i meant by alone was without friends...Anyways thanks agian.
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