Please help..I want to call so bad...
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Please help..I want to call so bad...
| Mon, 08-09-2004 - 8:00pm |
I can't stop thinking about it today and over the last few days. Once I start crying I cry and cry and cry, it's like everything I pushed away for the last month or so just burst through the floodgates. I keep picturing him, he is in all of my dreams. In my dreams things are normal like we are dating. I remember every little thing we did together. This feels like slow and painful torment. I want to talk to him, I want to call him so bad, I don't feel like I can just walk away and not say anything. I wonder if he is feeling this and I wonder what went wrong. I never saw it coming so it just feels so wrong and like hes just making a huge mistake. Please tell me why I shouldnt call because I am so close. It'll be almost two months now and I feel like I can hardly even breathe...

The only way to feel better is to resist the urge to call and string together a significant period of no contact. I know how hard it can be, but I also know from experience that nothing else works.
Hope this helps,
Sheri
This feeling will pass. Don't call him. If you call him you may feel worse. I speak from experience. Initially it feels good, but then you realize you're not together and you have to say good bye again. Your healing will have to start all over.
You will get through this. Go for a walk, call a friend instead, anything, just don't call him. I feel silly admitting this, but I have called my own voice-mail and left a message as if I were leaving it for him. I said everything I needed to say and realized I would have felt dumb, had I really said those things to him. Make sense? Stay strong!
Keep posting. (((hugs))) to you.
I know how you feel. There are so many times when I would love to pick up the phone, talk to him and everything will be worked out. But I think we all know that it doesn't work like that. I have my bad days where I cry and wonder why it happened. But I have not for awhile (moments, but not days) I just stay busy. I think of what I am going to do all day. I stay busy and once I have my plans, I know that calling him is not in it. I just take it one day at a time. I am hoping that the urge will go away. If someone doesn'twant to talk to me... why bother? There are lots of people who do!