God is so good and I don't want to throw my beliefs on anyone so for give me if I just did ., But That's what I had to write . Tonight I knew was going to be hard for me . It is raining and the rain can sometimes make you feel even more depressed and hurt more than you already do. But something told me go online and see if anyone read my post or even cared . Ladies I think that if I wouldv'e looked and there were no postings , I would've starting calling him , but now I feel or should I say know that I can go to sleep without calling at least tonight . It just hurts to know that he can just move on like that . When we decided to have a child together my two boys were 10 and 17 I was wearing a size 7/8 and was going to the gym everyday working at a job I loved and really getting past a violent relationship . After I had my daughter prematurly a c-section and gained 80 lbs. I battled depression and can't say that I've always won.But still non of those things stopped me from being a good wife and a excellent mother . I always thought that when things got good for us we would be together. But they got good for him and he just left , ran didn't even look back . I find myself sometimes even having my daughter call him . Just so that I can see if he asks for me or to see if he'll answer when he sees her number. When does this stop ? Why can't I just let go ? Ladies Your support is all I have now and I thank you now maybe I can get some sleep .
Pain is weakness leaving the body..... YEAH RIGHT