problem! i'm ambivalent,is this a sign?
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| Thu, 05-04-2006 - 3:43pm |
So I just found out that my ex's cousin will be working where I work!( i officially told him i don't want to be with him a few days ago if u were wondering)How freakin crazy is that?! It's just a small world. Well that made me think, is that a sign? Because yesterday I felt like I did want to be with him and he was the one for me, but I was pms-ing and was just sad. Today I am feeling a little better and think i can get over it and that it was the right thing to do- until i figure this out! i mean just when i thought no contact would start and i would have no ties to him, this happens. He's not that close to her but still, it's a connection for him. I have felt there are other signs too, so I am like what is the deal here?
I mean I don't feel anything for him, well not as strongly as he does I should say. I felt I should tell him, so he didn't find out later and get mad at me for not telling him (which is dumb, i probably shouldn't have said anything), but for some reason i did, i just texted him and of course he called me, but it was short and sweet, he told me to call him tonite but i don't think i will. I mean i think i am really on my way to sticking with my gut and doing the right thing, I don't want to mess that up. But why on earth did this have to happen? i mean what does this mean, i mean i am sure its nothing- it just makes me mad and curious. It's like i was all ready to forget him and now what if she spies on me for him, or they talk about me and stuff...uughh.
Is this just a little bump that i have to get over and then things will be fine? I thought my problem was enough to deal with and then this happened, just great..whats hard is that i am really ambivalent right now, i keep questioning my decision, thats why i am wondering about this, sometimes i think that with time and dating other people, i will conclude that he is the one, but isn't that normal to think after a break up? i mean thats not how its supposed to be is it?
What do you all think it means? Am I overreacting? How do I not let this affect him and I now and in the future????
Edited 5/4/2006 3:46 pm ET by precious2be

Yes, it's just a bump and yes, you're overreacting...but that's normal...we're all hypersensitive right after a breakup.
How about you do this: commit to yourself and all your friends (I find personally it helps to state these commitments to my friends to keep me on track) that you're not going to contact him for 60 days. At the end of that time, see how you feel. Tell yourself, whenever you want to call him, that if you still feel you need to, you can...on July 4 (assuming you start today).
Sheri