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| Thu, 04-20-2006 - 4:07pm |
I have so much rage when I think about all the things he did and said to me in the end. And he did it just to hurt me. How can I get over this rage. It actually builds in my chest until I just wish I could choke him. :(

Oh, I hear ya...the anger stage was the hardest for me, too. I felt so much rage towards my ex in my most recent breakup (he just disappeared on me without a word after 1.5 years) that I thought I would explode!
It does pass though...I found that journaling, posting here, venting to friends, and seeing my counselor all helped. And sometimes just SCREAMING out loud (when I was alone, of course), LOL!
Sheri
Sheri just reminded me of something I've been doing for the 'anger' feeling.
I've made CDs/compilations after my breakups that helped me listen to songs about what I was going thru. This latest one will be my 3rd "volume" in the "series" (yes, I have to put humor in it to help the pain). Anyway, I'm calling it the "SHOVE" album, meaning the anger, the shove I want to give him, the get away from me/you don't deserve me/how could you theme. I've got about 17 tracks already on there and seriously when I listen to the playlist, I feel pretty good!
It also just helps me pass time ;) Plus, my friends have helped me think of songs along this theme too.
Some of the tracks I listen to while at the gym running and I feel like "I am woman" when I hear them!
Just my 2 cents...