regression, or part of the process?
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| Fri, 11-05-2004 - 11:46pm |
and today hasn't been that bad, either,
i just get a little down sometimes.
is that regression?
or is it normal to have a couple good days,
and then a bad day?
i know that friendship is NOT an option,
and i've gotten to the point where i
almost don't want it at all. i think to
myself, "if his friends were able to
convince him to break up with me, why
wouldn't they be able to convince him to
not be FRIENDS with me? and more important,
why would i want to be around someone who
lets their friends make decisions FOR them?"
but, sometimes, it's still hard.
i think the thing that depresses me most is
that i'm stressed out about finding "the one."
so many women on here have said that they think
that he was "the one," but every single man on
the face of the planet seems to be afraid of
commitment.
this sounds so dumb, but i'm afraid i won't
get married. that's my DREAM. i want to fall
in love, and spend the rest of my life with
someone.
but it seems like men aren't interested in that.
i feel like i keep thinking regressive thoughts
(instead of thinking of progressively, like i have been)
for instance, tonight i was talking to my dad about
how Jon was so easily influenced, and that it hurt me
that he let his friends talk sh*t about me, and didn't
stand up for me ONCE.
and my dad said: "why don't you think about how he
doesn't have a backbone, and doesn't DESERVE to be with
an intelligent, opinionated woman like you? he's weak.
you're not. you should be grateful he's out of your life."
that made me think a LOT. i'm hoping that having a
negative day after all these positive days is normal...
i'm a little worried that i might be regressing. :-\
can anybody who's been through the horrible process that is
"breaking up" please enlighten me?
your love and support kept me going
through my darkest of times.
thanks for always being positive and
thanks so much for taking an interest.
i truly appreciate it.
and thanks in advance for any responses <3

hugs,
Karen