Sad n Alone :(
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| Wed, 05-04-2005 - 8:28am |
Hello
I an a newbie to this site and need to talk to someone. Essay comig up!
Just over two years ago my parents had just split up and i went off the rails a bit (im only 19 was 17 at the time) I came on the internet and found Andrew. We hit it off straight away, was talking every day, and eventually we decided to meet up. (I was from London, him from Nottingham - UK). It was like love at first sight - tingly feeling in my stomach, feelin really nervous! well we met up and got on like a house on fire.
In May 2003, my mum had already moved away to scotland, and dad was thinking about moving to devon so i had to think what i was going to do. I was still with Andrew at the time, so i decided to give it a chance and move in with him in Nottingham. We rented a lovely house together, and everything was fine.
In Feb 04, we had a major car accident. This is when he changed towards me (he thinks he didnt change at all!) He didnt want to spend time with me, and would like to do his own thing. Still, we plodded along as a couple and was still getting on ok.
Now, here i am this morning, sat here in floods of tears as he has left me. Ok so we had our ups and downs, but dont everyone? He says that he loves me but is not IN love with me. We split up 2 weeks ago, and he has left me to sort myself out, knowing full well i have no family or friends up here!
I dont know what to do, as i cant afford to run this place on my own, and i dont want to move back with my dad.
Im 19 years old, and feel like life is not worth living at all!
Please can i have some advice!
:'O(
Thanks

Thank you for your reply.
I have been trying to find somewhere to live all last week. I am going to view a house tonight which is looking positive. My head just feels so messed up right now. I want to move on, but i dont think i have the strength to do it. Its soo hard. I thought that the day i had to say goodbye to my mum and little brother was going to be the hardest day of my life, but this is worse.
Did i mention that he went out on friday night and found another girlfriend? well so he says anyway. This makes me feel as if i am worthless. or maybe the relationship was worthless? who knows.
Im going to the doctors tommorrow because i havent eaten since saturday and cant sleep - feel really drained.
Thanks once again for your reply
Katie xx