Saw him on a date-6 wks
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Saw him on a date-6 wks
| Sat, 11-18-2006 - 10:59pm |
It's been six weeks since our breakup, and tonight I was out to dinner with my parents and he and a girl walked into the same restaurant. As soon as he walked in, we made eye contact, and he mouthed the words "I'm sorry". They left minutes later. I was almost sick, and my mother took me out to the car. It was the most devistating experience. I made the mistake of sending him a letter saying that I would like to have him in my life but not in a romantic sense, and I never got any reply. I guess I know why now. I don't know how long he has been dating, since he was asking mutual friends about me just a few weeks ago, but I guess this is the sign that I need that he no longer has feelings for me. I wonder why it's so much easier for guys to move on? I have gone out with a guy two times who I would, in other circumstances, be smitten, but I just couldn't get over my hopes to by with my ex again.

Ouch, I know that had to hurt.
I know, I'm not making much sense. I guess because I haven't moved on, regardless of my attempts, I want to think that he is wallowing at home in all the pain that he has caused me, and that's hard to do when it's right in front of me. I guess it's just a hard time, b/c our would-be anniversary is today and it's not unimaginable that he will be spending it with her. I just want the pain and the sadness to stop, and I just feel like there is no end.
Thanks for your response. I am normally a reasonable person, so I know that there are other points of view to the situation. I guess that's why I keep posting :)
Ugh, and the would-be anniversary right on top of it all?