you're right, and thanks for your reply. i know i shouldn't suppress my feelings. i'm just so disappointed that it's back to this. i thought i'd gotten rid of the phase of crying so hard i can't stand, being sick to my stomach, leaving work early, not getting any sleep... and i hate to say this, but it's not because he's not in my life. it's because i know that i'm not happy right now, but they seem to be. or at least, they're growing closer. i know life's not fair, but i'm a good person, they've done f'd up things, so why am i the one crying? why am i the one alone? i deserve to be happy. and i also
i just feel like i'm back to having no control. i'm frustrated that these feelings come up. i wish that it didn't bother me, that i could say "who cares? i don't" when it comes to them. i know it takes time, and i was doing so well. i just want the nightmare to be over already.
thanks surfergirl. i knew me and him were over before. i just have been holding onto this idea that things won't be right in the world unless that relationship goes south. it's
::and i thought bad things (e.g. my ex's relationship going bad) would go to them because they did hurtful things. but apparently it hasn't, if they're growing closer so quickly.
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Hi Showtime07,
you're right, and thanks for your reply. i know i shouldn't suppress my feelings. i'm just so disappointed that it's back to this. i thought i'd gotten rid of the phase of crying so hard i can't stand, being sick to my stomach, leaving work early, not getting any sleep... and i hate to say this, but it's not because he's not in my life. it's because i know that i'm not happy right now, but they seem to be. or at least, they're growing closer. i know life's not fair, but i'm a good person, they've done f'd up things, so why am i the one crying? why am i the one alone? i deserve to be happy. and i also
I'm on a mission to figure out what is going to make me happy.
Showtime - I am dreading the day I hear something like this.
thanks surfergirl. i knew me and him were over before. i just have been holding onto this idea that things won't be right in the world unless that relationship goes south. it's
i kinda do too, but the past few months has made me question the idea. i've thought good things would come to me
::and i thought bad things (e.g. my ex's relationship going bad) would go to them because they did hurtful things. but apparently it hasn't, if they're growing closer so quickly.
Looks can be deceiving.
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