She emailed me today...

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Registered: 03-07-2005
She emailed me today...
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Fri, 04-01-2005 - 2:38pm

It's been 20 or so days of no contact, not great days mind you but survivable. Get up go to work, come home and sleep. Not wonderful days but ok. Anyways she emailed me today, telling me she's thinking about me. I so want to talk to her right now, bad. I miss her and I miss not having her in my life. I miss her smile, the way her hair smelled, the way her skin felt, her laugh. I dream about her all the time but I haven't gotten in touch with her. But I want to. I want to hear her voice again, I want to hold her. What should I do continue to ignore her? This hasn't gotten easier over time let me just say that.

Ascendent

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Fri, 04-01-2005 - 3:07pm
Here is my 2 cents without knowing the whole story. If you both want to contact each other then it would appear not is all said and done. If it was one sided then I would caution. But whatever you decide listen to your head as well as your heart.
-hugs-
Tammy
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Registered: 03-07-2005
Fri, 04-01-2005 - 3:35pm

Thanks for you're response but I think talking to her would be a mistake. I do miss her very much so, I do want her back in my life but on my terms not on hers. I already made this mistake once before in going back to her. I'm not going to put myself through it all over again just because in the short term I'd be happier. It's just been hard because inaddition to all my feelings towards her she was my best friend. But anyways thanks for reading I'm going to stay the course.

Ascendent

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Registered: 03-16-2005
Sat, 04-02-2005 - 2:23pm
Sounds like you're doing the right thing for you. Hang in there. :)
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Sat, 04-02-2005 - 4:27pm
Stay strong!!! Believe me, I know the feelings you are going through! It has been 5 weeks of absolutely no contact on my end and my ex has been trying to get in touch with me...responsing would make the ball be in HER court (or in my case, his). This is NOT a game to me, this is for real, and by even responding at all, my ex would think I am partaking in his game. Given my situation was a break-up based on the final straw, after on and off for 5 and a half years, but letting go for real is not supposed to be a piece of cake--how would we learn and grow:) I always tell myself that when I start thinking of him or missing him that it is only because he is thinking of me and that makes me strong again:)
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Sat, 04-02-2005 - 7:13pm

Thanks for the support, I wish I felt as strong as I sound in my last post. Last night I was up till all hours in the morning debating with myself whether to email her back or not. My head understands that it wouldn't be healthy to get in touch with her, to just keep moving on and keep her out of my life untill I'm ready. But my heart is saying what if this is your last chance, what if you never hear from her again.

*sigh* Yes underneath all this pain and stress, I guess I still harbor the fantasy that we might of gotten back together. Think I just need to let that go and move on. So hard though, well you know how I feel.

Just wish that I didn't have all this doubt. Thanks again for the response.

Ascendent

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Mon, 04-04-2005 - 10:49pm
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Wed, 04-06-2005 - 9:01am
Good question to ask yourself. What if you never hear from her again? I'm going through the same thing too. If I never hear from him again, my life might be better rooted. I was never sure where he stood or what he wanted.....or if it was even me he wanted. So what if I never hear from him again or you never hear from her?....maybe its just for the best.
It hurts like hell...I know, but we all heal. At least that's what I keep telling myself, but history does dictate that it WILL get better.