Show the World how much I Love her...
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Show the World how much I Love her...
| Tue, 08-03-2004 - 8:02pm |
I've lost the one girl on this earth I've truly ever cared for and have tried everything to get her back. She visits this site religiously and if somehow she comes across this, I hope it can show her and the world how much I love her and that she is the only one I want to be with. Her name is Giuliana, and she is as close to an angel in human skin that I have ever met. I was a rowdy, beer guzzling, cigarette smoking, early morning partier for years and years and after my parent's divorce I figured true love was nothing but a faerie tale and that I would never find it. And does anyone really find it, besides in those hollywood romance movies? And those movies unfortunately are so far from reality, because things guys do in those romance movies just can't be done in real life. In real life, those things just make you look like a stalker or push the girl further away. But anyways, like I said, I didn't believe in true love. Then she came along, and from the start it seemed meant to be. I actually worked in her neighborhood doing security, and one day she strolled in to the pool where I just happened to be at the time, we made tons of eye contact and even shared a few smiles. Love at first sight? I sure thought so. But out of respect, it was unprofessional to hit on her where she lived, because if she wasn't interested, I didn't want her to be shy to come to her own pool. So I waved and we said goodbye with a smile. Two days later, when I pulled into work, and went to the pool, there she was, in her cute blue bikini, which I grew to love, and just looking absolutely gorgeous. I didn't want to pass up another chance to talk to her, so I went over, started small talk and we got along so good and she was just as kind and as cute as I thought she'd be. Anyways, we exchanged numbers, and a few days later I tried to break the ice, but unfortunately I thought I had the wrong number. Cause every time I would call, a guy would pick up and say I had the wrong number. I was a little disappointed, until a day or two later, she called me and was upset because I hadn't called?? Turns out, her Father is very strict with guys, and her brother also doesn't let guys talk to her, so it was the right number all along I just couldn't get a hold of her at the right time. After we figured that all out, we began to get to know eachother and she invited me to a friend's party that night. We talked that day for hours. But at the same time, she had just got out of a long relationship and didn't want anything real serious, and at the time I really didn't either, so we agreed to take things slow. That night at the party, I don't know what it was, but we had only met in person once before that, but still it seemed like we had known eachother for years. No one could believe we just met, because we were real playful and poking fun at eachother all night like we were best friends. We had a great time and ended the night with a simple kiss, and every day after that it was like heaven on earth. She came to see me everyday at her pool, or I would drive by her house to see her, or we would talk on the phone for hours on end. And every night she could go out during the week, after i got off work, she would come over and watch a movie or we would go out. I actually began to skip work a couple days because we wanted to spend so much of our time together. Maybe true love was possible I though finally. I brought her a rose every once in awhile just to surprise her and left it on her car, with a little bag of "Doritos" (found out that was her favorite snack). Or I'd call her and see if she wanted to go to lunch on my break, and we'd go get pizza or something, or if she couldn't make it, I would bring her something back from my lunch and leave it for her. She started to surprise me by bringing me lunch too. We were inseperable. She said I had changed her mind and she thought she was ready to try out a new boyfriend after all. Things got better and better and we grew close, until she started to tell me her ex was calling her all the time again and stopping by the house and now he wanted her back. After months of not hearing from him, and him emailing her nasty letters and dating all kinds of different girls, now he wants her back. Obviously he couldn't find anything better, so he had to come back to her saying he loved her. If he truly did, he wouldn't have left in the first place, and he is right though in his thinking, there is NO ONE better in my eyes. And that's the damnable misery of it, because she took him back. Just when things were going great with me and her, he cryed to her and made her feel sorry for him, because I guess she said they would try again and just needed time apart. And in turn, he took my world away from me. Well, somehow this didn't seem fair at all, but since I cared for her and want her to be happy, I told her I'd be her friend or whatever she wants me to be. But after awhile, I got kinda angry, because how could she throw away all our good times and feelings just like that, and pretend there was none. It's a great thing and another reason why I'm in love with her, because she's so loyal and would never keep two guys at a time. But in this situation as usual, the nice guy got left in the cold. She blocked out whatever memories we had and now months later, it's so hard to even keep in touch with her anymore. We had something great, but she felt she owed him something because they were together for years. I've always thought, it isn't the "quantity" of something, it's the "quality". And I wish she would realize that. Well maybe my posting this, it will prove to her how deep for her my love goes. And remind her of what a great thing we had. I'm only 23 but want to spend the rest of my life with her, or as long as she wants me around. I would die for her, and do anything for her. So if you could please help me out, and show the world how much Mike is in love with Giuliana, I would spend the rest of my life repaying you and owe you my life if somehow you could help bring back my lost angel. Thanks, and I Love You Giuliana forever. Feel free to respond to this post and I don't mind the criticism, because I've had plenty of it. Everyone except for me, tells me to forget about her and move on, but I don't play games anymore and I'm not gonna pretend like I don't think the world of her anymore and ignore her, just to make her come back. Hopefully, just being myself and being an honest guy who is real, which most guys don't know how to do nowadays, will eventually make me a happy man with the girl of my dreams someday soon...

Hi My name is Ashley.
I am really sorry about you and julie.
But this is my thoughts on first loves.
First loves are never really over.
Take that however you want to.
but what i mean, is they set the blueprint for everything after that.
in a way that is good in a way that sucks.
because the next person is never gonna be what he/she was. lookswise, attitudewise or anything else.
maybe they share similar veiws or resemble eachother a little bit.
But that person, is not the person you first came to love.
By thinking that there is noone else like her, and comparing other girls to her,
you could be missing out on something real.
comparing, just isint fair.
and its great, she came into your life. she must of come into your life for a reason.
maybe it was to change you, and change the way you live your life.
and to show you, that connecting with another human, is possible.
be happy about the times you shared. be happy you ever had her......dont be sad.
alot of people never experince what you had, some people are incapabale of loving. and you loved.
it should be a releif to you to know, that you can do that.....
that you can love.
and you will love again.
keep yer head up.