Smiling Again

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Registered: 02-24-2005
Smiling Again
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Mon, 03-14-2005 - 9:37am

"I woke up this morning with a smile on my face" - a line from one of Christina Aguilara's (sp) songs. One of my favorite right now actually. Because for the first time in months I woke up this weekend smiling. I realized the hell I have been through to get past the heart ache of losing my best friend and soul mate. I have fought through the storm of him coming back to me, scared and lonely and confused. I have celebrated in knowing that for once I can say no to him and tell him that he can't make me happy until he is happy. It has been the hardest battle that I have ever fought and part of me is still fighting and will always be. But at least I can wake up smiling and say I am strong, I am happy. I have learned so much from my ex. I have learned so much from this break up, that I know the next time I come to heart break I will make it through. And I will be even stronger for the next one. It's an incredible feeling the moment you realize that you are going to be okay, and that life goes on without him. I can smell the rain now and watch the sunset without crying and wondering if he is seeing and feeling the same thing. I still think of him every day, but when I do I pray that he is finding happiness, and that he is okay. I am a better person now and I know more of myself because of him, so I can give him that.
So here's a note to everyone that is just beginning the long journey to recovery: You are strong, whether you realize it now or not, you are beautiful without him telling you; and one day you too will be able to watch the sunset or enter a restaurant full of his memories and smile because you made it through. Keep your head up and remember to seek your own happiness now.

Anna

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: acollom2005
Mon, 03-14-2005 - 9:46am

Anna...


The only word Pianoguy can add to your lovely post is......AMEN!


PG

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Registered: 01-30-2004
In reply to: acollom2005
Mon, 03-14-2005 - 8:35pm
I'm glad to hear that you are making vast improvements...I know it hasn't been easy but you're pulling through and I think you should be proud!!
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