A sob fest

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Registered: 02-23-2005
A sob fest
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Tue, 01-01-2008 - 4:33am

I went out with my friend tonight for NYE. There were two nice guys there. I could tell they were into here which was totally fine. The clock struck 12 and I had the urge to cry. I kept it together but left about an hour later.

I came home and haven't stopped crying since. I think it's because I had this realization that I would eventually have to meet someone different. The thought makes me sick. I'm just not ready...even to just casually date. I still love my ex with all my heart.

can anyone else think why it was so bad tonight? an no, i wasn't drunk. :)

 

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Registered: 06-09-2004
In reply to: mdrsfr
Tue, 01-01-2008 - 7:41am

Happy New Year!


It was so bad because society make NYE an event where one has to have someone special to be with, to kiss at midnight. I did not go out last night. I am on call for my Hospital and have to go in this morning. But I know ex was at a wedding and who knows what he did, or whom he was with. He did send me a pathetic e-card, which I wish I had not opened. It ended with "take care". WTF??


I think there is a group of us on this board right now, who are going through similar things, and I think we can help each other. Email me anytime.


AT this point I do not want to date anyone either. I have no desire. Me ex already admitted to me that he talked on the phone to a girl he did not go on a date with(probably a lie) for two 3 hour long sessions as he missed talking to me every night. HE is also doing other things that are not in his character. But in the end, I have to believe it is his loss, and he was not right for me. In fact, I am now questioning whether I was "in love" with him at the end. I did love him. SO why am I all freaked out?

seachells

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Registered: 12-17-2007
In reply to: mdrsfr
Tue, 01-01-2008 - 10:59am

Hi guys, in the exact same position. I love my ex so much, it makes me sick, i miss her so much. I got some attention last night from an attractive women but i just was'nt interested at all. I know i've got to keep moving on, but it really does hurt. I.m 7 weeks N/C now but feeling quite weak at the moment, can see a stray text heading her way before the days out. I.m 44yo and still going through this.


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Registered: 02-23-2005
In reply to: mdrsfr
Tue, 01-01-2008 - 12:36pm

Thanks for your posts. I woke up this morning with big, puffy dark circles under my eyes. No chance of scoring a date with that! ha ha! I feel a little better and I'm just going to start this day and be nice to myself.

I think what was upsetting too, is the the girl I hung out with last night just got divorced from her husband at the same time I was dumped by my ex. She was dating and married to her husband almost exactly how long I was dating my ex. She seemed so happy that she was getting divorced (something she wanted, not him) and was very happy to be dating. She had gotten a drunken phone call from her ex that day and talked about him like he was just very sad and pathetic (see, another good reason not to break NC). I was just wondering if my ex felt the same way...you know...totally happy now.