Some days are so much harder than others

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-21-2004
Some days are so much harder than others
4
Sun, 03-12-2006 - 11:29am
I'm sure you can all relate and I've read some of your posts that mirror my feelings exactly.... can hardly breathe, don't want to get out of bed, just plain don't really care about anything. I feel bad when people are talking to me and they might be telling a story and laughing but it feels sooooo hard to laugh with them at times. And do you look at other people and wonder if you're heart will ever feel light again instead of as if it has a 10 lb. weight around it? I know everyone says time, but sometimes it's so difficult to believe. : ( Hugs to all that are going through this. I'm going on three weeks and know there's still a long road ahead.
Avatar for memphisstars
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-26-2003
Sun, 03-12-2006 - 12:21pm

Hugs to you. I am feeling the same things you are right now. Every day I wake up, it seems I have made no progress. There is this huge empty hole inside me and nothing has much meaning. I still can't believe this has happened.

All I have right now is hope and "no choice." I keep telling myself there is absolutely nothing I can do to get him back. The last few days I have been reading break-up self-help books and kind of wallowing in the process. That is okay for me to do right now.

It takes much longer than we like, but the end will eventually come and the fog will lift, I promise. I have done this once before. Keep coming to the boards.

iVillage Member
Registered: 05-07-2005
Tue, 03-14-2006 - 5:52pm

Boy do I know how you feel. Just wanting to sleep, not wanting to eat, see anyone, go to work, or even watch TV. The thought of ever being with anyone else sickens me; it's like there can never be anyone who makes me feel the way he did. Sometimes I am ok, then all of the sudden a thought of him hits me so hard it actually stops me in my tracks and I have to wait till it passes. I seem to cry constantly. Nothing brings me any joy. All least we are all here to help each other and wish, hope and pray that these feelings pass soon.

Many hugs,
Karen

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-01-2004
Tue, 03-14-2006 - 6:01pm
I know exactly what you mean. It feels like the world has lost all meaning and you are left all alone. I keep telling myself that we meet people, have a relationship, learn things and then move on. The only thing that lessens the pain is time (and hopefully these boards!). We can get through it though! We ARE stronger then we think! You keep posting and I'll keep posting and we'll check on eachother ok? I found these boards today and I feel like there are a whole mess of friends that I didn't know I had. It will get better. It has to because it can't get too much worse right? So, keep your chin up! And just remember to tell yourself everyday that YOU ROCK.
Avatar for memphisstars
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-26-2003
Tue, 03-14-2006 - 9:51pm

Yes, we will just all hold hands through this. I read these boards several times a day, even if I don't always post. Know that I am here in spirit!

The nights are hardest for me, because I always headed over to his house at some point, for six years. I felt a pain tonight as I drove home from my dog training class that was just excruciating. I wanted to turn the car around and go to his house. I wonder what he is doing and why he is not missing me.

My pain is aggravated by the fact that within about three months he has found a woman in another country on the internet to move here and have his baby. Can you imagine that? Left me for a stranger he has never met to fulfill his biological urge! Well, just pray for me, please. That is all I can say. You all are in my thoughts. We all deserve so much better.