still not feeling 100%
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| Fri, 10-21-2005 - 8:58pm |
This is my second posted message to this site. My first I posted about three weeks ago and since I have corresponded with many nice people.
It has been almost three months now and I am still hurting. Just when I think I am in the clear another set of baracades assemble before me. In one hand I am proud that it hurts this much. I have never loved someone like I loved my ex and I had no idea how I would react to a breakup with him. I am proud that it has knocked me down as it has because I know that it was the real thing. In the other hand I am angry because I finally felt true love and it is with someone that I am not meant to be with. By definition this is the ulitimate oxymoron.
There are things I have been able to do in order to not be consumed and controled by the pain. I try to eat better then I ever have. I try to get plenty of sleep. I keep my body hyrdated (with water not beer, although the latter of the two is a great numbing tool so they tell me). I take vitamins and I have been jogging. I know that if my body is depleted of any of this then I won't be able to battle my emotional state as well. It is like having a cold. If you don't take care of your body it will be harder for you body to combat the virus. Depriving our bodies of nutrients is a sure fire way to break down someone emotionally let alone someone who is already dealing with a love loss.
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