Still stuck in the past.

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Registered: 02-15-2004
Still stuck in the past.
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Fri, 02-25-2005 - 4:18pm

And it looks like that is where I'm destined to stay for the foreseeable future.

The woman, whom I will always consider my "soulmate", that left me two years ago called just before Christmas and left me a message to call her cell if I got the chance. Just hearing her voice makes me nostalgic for the past. She wished me a Merry Christmas and said she hoped I was doing well and to call her.

Well, I did. Big mistake. First, she said she called because she was a bit drunk so that made me feel real good right off the bat. Then she proceeded to tell me how great her life is with her live-in boyfriend. She even told me they're discussing marriage. I told her that if she does marry him, to do me a favor and not break the news to me. And she went on about how I should be happy for her, blah, blah, blah.

I can't pretend to be happy for her when I know in my heart of hearts that I still want to be with her and that I still love her. I realize that our little conversation gave her the ego lift she was looking for and let her know that I'm still nuts about her. So now, it's back to the same old routine...pretending that I'm happy and have moved on with my life while in reality, I'm just pining away for a love that's lost.

People talk about moving on and forgetting about the past. In my opinion, the only way for me to forget is to get a frontal lobotomy. This romantic Purgatory I'm stuck in is more like hell. Indeed, it is a life sentence...

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 02-25-2005 - 5:19pm

palyzywa slzy...


Pianoguy recently got an email from an EX/WIFE.....and that was a major surprise!

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Registered: 10-17-2004
Fri, 02-25-2005 - 7:23pm
I'm sorry, Palzywalzy.....I tend to live in the past as well so I know how you feel. It's so hard to move on sometimes. Just remember, you're the bigger person for loving someone so much. She will some day regret losing you, I'm sure. You're in my thoughts.
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Registered: 10-22-2001
Mon, 02-28-2005 - 9:16pm
It is hard to move on.
And we beat ourselves up about it.
The thing is just because someone doesn't love you
anymore doesn't mean you stop loving them.
My feelings for my ex are so ambivalent that honestly
if he called or I saw him I don't know what my reaction
would be.
This past christmas my ex-husband and my ex mil
decided to contact me and my kids.
Totally weirded me out. Why after all this time.
Really confusing. He left me, divorced me and married
someone else and wasn't there for both of our kids.
Too little, too late.
nightangel
Nightangel
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Registered: 01-30-2004
Mon, 02-28-2005 - 10:18pm
(((Palzy)))
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