is there a crash coming
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is there a crash coming
| Wed, 02-22-2006 - 12:33am |
my ex and i started dating in april of 2004, then we got pregnant, got engaged and then had a miscarraige and broke up in june of 2005. then we decided that the stress of the loss of the baby didnt allow us to think straight and i moved across the country to be with him in september 2005. we officially called it quits again a week ago, the day before valentines day. i have had to move back home and rearrange my life yet again. the thing is, the first time we broke up i was devastated and never even mourned the loss of my child because i was mourning the loss of him. now that we have broken up a second time, i am feeling fine and am awaiting a crash. i really loved this person and was willing to go to all ends of the earth to make it work and now and that we arent together, i have cried a couple of times but i am ok. and i think that something is wrong with me. this was a two year relationship. it was the day before valentines day. is this normal? has anyone else ever felt like they shouldnt be feeling so ok with something so traumatic? i am not angry, i am not happy about it, but i am not devastated. did anyone feel like this and then completely have a meltdown becuase that is what i am terrified of. any thoughts?

I know this doesn't help; but I broke up with and kicked my now-exboyfriend out of my apartment last night. I had grown so resentful of him because he basically moved himself into my apartment while I was away on a work trip, although it took me a few months to say anything about it to him (he was a great guy...no problems, he paid rent, I just never wanted him to live with me sooo soon!).
Add that to the fact that we had absolutely nothing in common, and he never wanted to try anything new...(our 'pasttime' was sitting at each of our respective computers and watching Stargate SG-1).
I figured I wouldn't be so affected by it. Boy, I was dead wrong! I'm sitting here crying (as we speak) trying to find some words of wisdom to comfort me here on the boards, when I came across your post. I feel devestated when I was confident that I WOULDN'T feel this way! Ug, I think I just lost at life a little bit. *laughs*