Tired of Being Upset
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Tired of Being Upset
| Wed, 03-19-2008 - 2:04pm |
Today, for the first time since our breakup, when I went to write in my journal I didn't want to do so. Normally it feels cathartic to rehash the story again, but today I didn't want to write it down again, didn't want to feel upset. I'm sure this isn't the end of feeling bad, and I know that there are many more rough days to come, but it is encouraging that I'm starting to get sick of being upset and might be able to start taking a few baby steps forward now. Wish me luck though--this weekend is "get rid of the mementos" weekend.

uncommononsense
I can't go back to yesterday--because I was a different person then. --L. Carroll
uncommononsense
I can't go back to yesterday--because I was a different person then. --L. Carroll

GOOD LUCK!
And in that journal consider writing about future goals, future happiness and write down things you are grateful for. ;)
Jacki-
That is wonderful that you are gettting to that point! I had my moment like that about a week ago- one day I just stopped crying (as in the sobbing hysterically kind) and the next, stopped talking only about him and the break-up. I have no idea why. It was just like a switch in my brain. I think we all have them and I think there is no specific time set. It just happens when it happens for everyone. I think this is a huge step forward! I do have moments when I cry but they aren't as long or as intense as before and I do talk about it from time to time but not as much. Even my friends are commenting that my voice sounds better, stronger, more confident about this all. I am not better or stronger or confident all the time-- a friend mentioned setting me up with a guy she knows. It was the first time someone had said those words to me since the break up (8 1/2 weeks ago). That got me crying a little bit but I think it is because that was the first time someone wanted to see me with a man who is not my ex. I guess I have that to look forward to in my future, until I meet the man who I will marry.
I want to let you know that I'll be thinking about you this weekend. If you do decide to pack up his things, you've got a friend on the boards. It was very difficult for me (I had to power-through pictures and letters) but once it was all done, I felt this light feeling for the first time since the BU. It does wonders but it stinks doing it. If this isn't the time for you, don't worry. You will get to a point when you get to that point.
I wish you well this weekend and write me with the news!
Sarah