A total set back ...
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A total set back ...
| Sun, 03-16-2008 - 5:35pm |
So, basically Ive been living the high life. I'm really happy with how things are going. I think it is because I'm too busy to honestly dwell. I've stopped thinking about my whole situation. Not entirely, but I've come a lot farther. A lot lot farther. It's been quite nice. Well, today I got online...and he was online. he's NEVER online.. That's why I never deleted him. I started to get this overwhelming sense of sadness. It kind of broke my heart. Ive been doing so fine, i haven't talked to him in a month and a half...And ever since he left...I felt this sigh of relief...So, why all of a sudden do i feel so crummy? I don't want him back.. EVER! I know this.. .I never want to deal with him again...he was a bad person and he brought me down..I came crashing down and hit rock bottom before I even realized how he was destroying me inside and out...and why am i sad? I feel better now that I deleted him.. I just feel like I've taken a step back...that saddens me more than anything. It hurts me that I let someone have this much power over me.


Yeah, contact, even indirect contact, will do that to you.