A trigger of sadness
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| Tue, 11-07-2006 - 12:19am |
It's been 4 months since my ex ended things with me. We were together for 2 1/2 years. I did do the NC thing for a month and a half and ended up breaking it, which I terribly regretted cause he only re-enforced why it was better for us to be broken up. He said he needed some time and space to get over things, but to drop him a line of hello once and awhile and he would do the same. I was crushed cause I knew he missed me, but yet he didn't want to be with me. That was over a month ago and during that time I was just a mess, I think I may have cried myself to sleep almost every night. Anyway, I have been doing everything I can to move on and forget about him. I was also dating this other guy for a bit of time, but my heart just wasn't in it, so we ended things.
I work for a very large law firm that has offices all over and today I had to work in our San Deigo office. On the way home from San Deigo I ended up taking the exact same route I use to take when I was coming from my exes place. I don't know why, but it just triggered something in me and I began to cry. I guess seeing the streets and the freeway exits to his place made me really sad because I know that I will probably never see him again. I cried all the way home and still crying as I type this. I am working very hard to do everything I possibly can to move forward, but it really is hard. I was in love and those feelings just don't go away overnight or over a 4 month period, no matter what you do, they just don't. Just like everyone else, I am taking it day by day. I have my really good days and I have my bad days (today was pretty bad). I do have to say though, I feel myself getting a little bit better and stronger, but then I still get those times when I miss him. Anyway, just needed to vent, thanks for listening.
T.

i'm so sorry you felt this way...i was in a same position like you.. for me its been for 7mths now...imagine :( (just kidding i'm oky now really)
i'm just like you i'm the one who start calling him again but everything went fine with me and him. before i'm the one who always initiating the contact..ofcourse i'm just a human i got tired of it i stop calling him....so lately he start calling me again and wants to see me but i always refused...
anyways on your situation what i think you really doing a good job for forgetting about him....well about the memory of them TRUST ME....every single things remind of us of them....which is hard right??? believe me everything is just in our head...if we control are self to stop thinking about them...it happen.
just what i did...before i used to read him horoscope everyday..i stop it!!! one in a day..until its finally over....but actually whats hard on my situation we have contact so its hard right??? i know he still wants me but he wants me to make that move...heck no i wont ask him back!! LOL
so chin up girl....everything will be oky....actually using this internet help me a lot to stop thinking of him.
good luck
Hi T,
Those down days can really throw you for a loop.
T -
I am going to post my whole story in a separate thread but I wanted to tell you that I am right there with you. I have not seen my ex in 4 months except for a meeting last week when we signed divorce papers. It was like being with someone I did not know, it was truly awful. Small things remind me of him and like you, it's a fairly simple thing that triggers it. I am not in a place yet where I can say, don't worry, it will get better because it's all too fresh for me. However, I can tell you that you are not alone and that my heart goes out to you. Do something nice for yourself today!
E