Ugh, emotional rollercoaster!
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Ugh, emotional rollercoaster!
| Tue, 12-19-2006 - 2:39am |
My boyfriend and I broke up a little over a year ago. We dated for three and a half years, and it was a pretty serious and deep relationship. At the end, I was going through some tough family and life stuff and he was just starting his career. We broke it off mutually, but we were still very much in love. We still talked everyday on the phone like we did while we were in the relationship, but about a week after the breakup, he didn't call at all. So I did the biggest no-no possible--I called him and called him, usually hysterical. After he called me back, a week later, things were different and he said that I had pushed him away by being so needy. We stopped talking for a while, and then around Xmas, we saw each other again, and ended up sleeping together. I brought up the subject of, "why don't you want to be with me" and he closed up and we didn't talk again for a few months. On my birthday in May, he came out with my friends and I, and picked up the entire tab. He was really friendly and flirty with me, and spent the night with me again, although we just cuddled. He said something that night like, "I know I love you." The next day things were great, but a couple of days later, I ended up saying something really stupid about another girl to him and we stopped talking, yet again. I apologized and he contacted me after about a month. It went on like this through the summer--we'd talk and then nothing for a few months. Mostly when we got together, I'd just fall apart because I missed him so much, which would just make him shut down and close up. His job takes a lot of his time, which I understand, and he spends a few nights a week with his friends. We stopped talking again at the end of October, and I decided that it really was time for me to move on, because I was an emotional wreck. He would say he loved me, and we'd have a great time, but when I broached the subject of getting back together, he'd close up or just mutter "I don't know." I left him alone and I was fine until he contacted me out of nowhere a few days ago. We ended up talking all night long, and then meeting for breakfast. It was a really good time. When I was about to leave, he asked me what I was doing this weekend, and I said I had to work and he said that we'd figure something out to get together. I talked to him one time since then, and I was able to broach the subject of getting back together very well, I have to say, but he said that he couldn't date anyone with his lifestyle right now, because work demands a lot of his time, and he likes his single life. He said that when we got together a few days before, he did still have feelings for me. I told him that I want to fix things and he said that he just wants to be friends. He also mentioned a girl that he's interested in, and when I asked him about it, he said that he's liked a lot of girls and nothing has ever come of it. He seems closed to the idea of us fixing things and getting back to where we were, but he still has feelings for me. Is he just scared? I want to think that he's just scared that he'll fall back in love with me too easily-- as cocky as that sounds. I don't mean it to. He hasn't talked to me since, and I don't want to call and seem desperate. So what's going on? Should I try to fix things? Or just drop him altogether?

Keep us informed, please...and good luck, I swear it gets better!!!
hugs,
Weez