UGH The Holidays
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| Mon, 12-10-2007 - 8:46am |
What is the best way to handle the holidays? My ex and I will be back in town and have a very recent breakup- after many years together (first relationship for both). We have stayed in touch on a friendly basis and will be attending a function we paid a lot of money for and will go together- strictly on a friends basis, which he is well aware of. I'm doing well with the breakup, I'm sad but I'm way over the thought of getting back together- I am ready to move on. He is not so ready and I know he has not cut contact with me because he is hurting.
I know this is going to be a lonely time and I will surround myself with family and friends as much as I can. At the same time, I worry for him because I know this is harder on him right now. Why am I always worrying about how he is? Is it because I will always love and care for him in a way? Or is it because I secretly am glad he is hurting because he hurt me so much? Sometimes I wonder if I want him to hurt as much as I did- and I feel kind of good/bad about that???? Does anyone understand that?
I suspect when the holidays are over, we will stop contact. I think he has been lingering because he doesn't want the break up and maybe he wants to keep things as cordial as possible until this function.
| Mon, 12-10-2007 - 5:28pm |
