Unsettled...
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| Wed, 08-29-2007 - 3:53am |
So I broke up with my boyfriend a few days ago... I wrote about that in another post, about losing my best friend.
The thing is, right now I'm in a city clear across the country from where my home was (I just moved here) and there are so many moments during the day when I want to tell him about this or that or I'm reminded of him or see something he'd like. And moments when I get stressed out or when I'd like to have a friend (other than the ones I've just met) to talk to when all these new situations get tough... and he's always been that friend for me. And we're still in love and it's so hard because when we talk it hurts so much because I just want to stay on the phone with him and I know that I shouldn't.
It's great here because it's so busy and there are so many distractions that I haven't had to think much about the break up, but it really gets to me when I can't share things with the guy I love. I want to talk to him SO bad right now, and I know he'd be receptive, I know he'd want to talk to me too... it's terrible.
I keep hoping that he'll figure out his issues so we can be together. I'm not the kind of person who needs anyone and I'm quite happy with myself but right now I just wish I could call my best friend.
I don't know how to handle it. It's difficult to move on when what I had was already so great... not good enough, I guess, but even with what was wrong there are few people who can compare or who've been there for me like he has.

Sounds kind of like a diary... it's funny because he is doing the same thing but writing letters to send me one day... I don't think I can handle reading those for a while. =/
But this will probably help with that need to talk to him right?
Thanks for the suggestion, I'm going to do that.