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| Wed, 11-15-2006 - 10:12pm |
I love this message board lol.
Well, after 2 hours of staring at an instant message with the text I wanted to send, I didn't. I really don't know why. I just could NOT bring myself to do it. I even counted to 3 a few times, expecting that on 3 I would hit enter. Nope. I didn't do it. I guess I don't have to know why I didn't.. I'll get some good sleep tonight. Who knows what emotions I will throw at myself tomorrow. I'm so tired of this lol...

Good for you! You made the right decision in not sending the message. I know how hard it is when you want to call him or text him and this voice in your head says "I shouldn't, I really shouldn't... but why not, what would be so bad about calling him if it's what I really wanna do?". I find that every time I resist the urge, the next day, or the day after, I feel good about it. Like I'm becoming a tiny bit stronger every time. For me, missing him is like a constant presence, though it has become sort of a low volume background noise... but then, from time to time, like the weekends when I'm less busy, it comes screaming back and those are the times when you want to contact him. Try not to let a passing emotion control you too much. Maybe you can find some other way to express it that doesn't involve talking to him. Write in your diary (or this board), talk to someone else, paint a picture, write a poem. It will pass, and then you'll feel good about staying strong and not giving in to it. Just like I assume you're feeling right now.
Siren
THAT'S AWESOME!!!!!