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| Tue, 10-16-2007 - 3:52pm |
Hi, big news. CLs, I'm not sure how to link this to
| Tue, 10-16-2007 - 3:52pm |
Hi, big news. CLs, I'm not sure how to link this to
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day number two of no contact.
i ache. :*(
i've eased up on trying to analyze the situation or figure out all the "why's." ... but i'm still deep in this sadness, slightly tinged with anger. i've never had to go through a situation in which someone i care about or love so deeply is pretty much dead. he went and killed a completely wonderful person.
and i've realized that in the few times we spoke, in those times when i was seeking some clarity and answers and trying to maintain some semblance of a bond, it was like he was punishing me for other people's wrongdoings and for his own negative feelings about himself. i cannot take the rap for everyone. i am so angry about that, but i feel more overcome by sadness.
i truly hope he has a wake-up call and realizes that how he's going about changing his life, and the type of person he's becoming, are harmful to him and could hurt the few people left around him.
i'm behind you, so congratulations! i'm on day zero again of no contact. of course i texted this morning after a week or so, thinking i would be ok if he didn't respond.
of course i'm not.
he moved on long ago & i even didn't care at the time! now i care, duh. oh well.
i'm going to have a long weekend by self too, so i may keep you company online! :)
hugz.
you deserve the best - give it to yourself.
Hey you two dont forget about me!! LOL Im here too for the weekend! So include me in on any discussions and lets get through it!
IDEA:
hey lady & showtime & whoever else is crying the blues out there...
ok, so i'm watching oceans 11 as my thing today. gonna watch 12 & 13 over the next couple weeks. nothing like a bunch of hot men to make everything feel ok again... ;)
tonite is the costume party.
we'll see how those things go. chin up ladies!
hey there, i'm still here, trying to get by. my friend took me out for drinks last night, so that was fun. and my coworkers are taking me out tonight.
my mission for the weekend is to finally get a handle on my apartment search.
let me know how things go.
(third day of no contact. i slipped a teeny tiny bit the other night by peeking at his messenger photo; he's changed it from one of him with my cat to one taken of him four or
(fourth day of no contact)
my body's really taking a beating in all of this. i've found it very hard to eat (a big deal for a foodie) and sleep. yesterday i had some french fries and a couple of bites of lasagna -- that sent me to the bathroom with the most terrible pains. and, sorry if this is TMI, but i've been getting extra periods. :(
i have never been hurt or betrayed like this. i got so blindsided.
- he'd been unhappy, but did not tell me until the very end, when he disappeared and freaked everyone out. he claims he'd told me before, but he never made it clear that he needed help, and those things he said sounded more tied to the move issue than anything else. it'd be different if we could work this out now that we both know our mistakes, but he's unwilling to give it a chance because in his warped mind this is "my fault" as much as it is his. i don't know how i became the poster child for his inability (or unwillingness?) to assume responsiblity for himself.
- just as he was not upfront about what he wanted, about what he meant by "space"
Have you tried taking ibuprofen for the pains? I find it helps.
Don't worry too much about the not eating, unless it's been over a week of not eating at all. Stay hydrated. Anyways I dropped 15 lbs over a week after my break up and bounced right back up there a few weeks later.
*hugz* Hang in there. 3 more days til a week of NC. Then go and treat yourself for doing a good job.
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