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| Mon, 04-02-2007 - 3:27am |
hello, im glad i have somewhere to post here because i am having a real hard time in my life right now, and nobody seems to care or understand..Little background info, im 24 female, from canada, lived in the same small town all my life. Married my abusive ex when i was 20, but got away from that. Now i live with my current bf of 1 year, but i am noticing he has changed and ive talked to him about it lots. Anyways, long sotry short, i need to break away from him. I still love him as a friend, because of everything he has helped me through, but i cannot love him as a partner anymore, its just not there, and i cant bear to drag it on anymore.
He is going to have a complete breakdown when i have to break the news to him. He always talks about our future marriage, babies, and home, and how much he loves me. Anytime i have talked about us not being together, he goes weird, im just so worried how he will react to me telling him we are over. I cant even sleep beside him anymore because it hurts too much, i cry just thinking of how much im about to hurt him, it breaks my heart. But it is something i have too do.
I plan on moving away from this town, for the first time, not only is my current bf going to flip, but half of my family will also, they love bf like there own, and they will freak on me when i tell them my plans on moving. They never see me anyways, and if they do its them giving me a hard time about something. It just feels like im a walking timebomb and im gonna blow any second.
I feel very, very alone. Even though i know people break up all the time, but i just feel lost, and guilty for the pain im about to cause. He will be so heartbroken, and the thought of him being here all by himself rips my heart out..how can I get over these feelings...

Your boyfriend will be hurt, of course, but staying when you don't want him is not fair to either of you. I think you should begin talking to him about this ASAP. If he gets weird, let him get weird. His pain does not make you a bad person.
Hi iv_skorpio,
When you value your own feelings and well-being more than you value his, things will get easier.