This weekend sucks!!

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Registered: 12-09-2005
This weekend sucks!!
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Sat, 07-01-2006 - 5:29pm

I am happy that I can finally take a breath over the weekend, yet sad about the fact that I am so alone, feeling even worse seeing other people holding hands and having fun (though I wish them the best).

I wish I was with him, having fun out there, on the boat, enjoying the fireworks and each other's company.

I thought i was okay, ready to be happy on my own. But I guess I do have my ups and downs.

I kept wondering where he is right now and what he is doing. But i guess it doesn't matter anymore since we are no longer together.

Just needed to vent.

Hope you all will get over the tough times soon.

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Registered: 12-06-2004
Sat, 07-01-2006 - 5:52pm

Yeah - this weekend sucks really really bad. I find myself wondering the same things you are - what he's doing - who he's doing it with. Wondering if he dreaded this weekend - the first since our break-up on monday - like I have been. And there's a whole extra day there to feel sad and lonely! The timing is brutal.

I was out yesterday and saw couples and thought: I was once one of those people where the guy drapes his arm casually over her shoulders, where they laugh on an outdoor patio, where they debate buying the regular or reduced fat mayo. It's those little things that crushed me. I was once there. And now I'm not.

I had the weird urge to try to pull the girl aside and tell her to run - he's a liar and will only disappoint you and make you miserable in the long run! Then confront all the happy couples, dragging the women out of their wicker chairs and away their loving boyfriends and the jar of mayo and preach to them about the perils of trusting men and feeling vulnerable and being all gushy inside when the day inevitably comes where they break your heart and leave you emotionally bruised and battered and crying all the time. I didn't though. But mainly because I wasn't sure if 'just-broke-up-with-guy-I-thought-would-be-the-father-of-my-children-and-the-
love-of-my-life' would hold up in court.

L




Edited 7/2/2006 2:19 am ET by oryx72
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Registered: 07-01-2006
Sat, 07-01-2006 - 6:38pm
I liked these messages because I went out with a group of girls from High School last night and we have been friends for years. It was one of hardest dinners/night I had to sit through because they were all with husbands, fiances, and serious boyfriends. It was great to see them all so happy but I was thinking of my last serious boyfriend all night. We broke up 4 months ago after a 3 1/2 year relationship. Everything reminds me of him, its hard to do anything that doesn't some how get me thinking about him. The only relief I had that night was dancing to Kelly Clarkson "Since you've been gone" and screaming out the words, quite liberating. It all will pass and we all will find love again. Keep active!
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Registered: 05-15-2006
Sun, 07-02-2006 - 1:47am
i almost had to laugh at your desire to tell all those women to run, because i want to do the same thing!! i sooo don't want to be that bitter old you know what, but its hard. i feel so betrayed! I want to do the same thing, run girls, men are pieces of...!, run for your lives!! nothing is worth this! but like you, i don't. its only day 14 of break-up and day 10 of no-contact, so i think that might be shading my vision a little bit (or entirely)
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Registered: 05-03-2006
Sun, 07-02-2006 - 3:01am

This weekend is tough because last year we were together..and last night there was this concert that I knew he was at, we used to go all the time together. I wonder ,is he thinking about me when he hears our song? how could he not miss me? miss us? but then my girlfriends remind me that men don't think that way, they aren't programmed to feel or care the way we do, thats why its so easy for them to move on.I'm sure not all men, but I understand that my guy was like that, he is emotionally detached and immature. So hopefully next July 4th weekend, I will be with a man that is emotionally mature caring and be able to look back to this year and say I'm glad for that experience because I am so happy !! so there!!

got to think positive right?