Well..

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Registered: 11-12-2006
Well..
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Mon, 11-13-2006 - 9:54pm

I am so tempted to instant message him right now because I know he is online. Instead, I guess I shall write here.

Dear You,

I understand that we have come to different points in our lives. I was willing to work on them because, despite my age, I really think I loved you and I wanted to work on us. Though you told me ALL of that crap for so long "I'll never leave you.. We'll be together forever" but then just bailed when the odds were against us. I guess you don't really care or love me. It's hard for me to not take that as a personal offense. I wonder why you haven't called me or even instant messaged me. You know that I don't have text messaging anymore but if you really wanted to talk to me then you would at least IM me. I don't know why I am wasting my thoughts and emotions on you still. Maybe it's because you still have my heart. Even though you don't deserve it. What makes me the maddest is that you say you don't deserve it but you never do anything to step up to the plate. It's like you don't want to deserve it. I doubt you will find someone that cares about you this much. But maybe someday you'll grow up, drop the alcohol and pot and realize what's important in life. Sadly, it might be too late. You're better than partying but I am also better than this. Better than letting some guy that it 300 miles away control my emotions without even being in my life. I respected and admired you so much. And you won't even be a man (since you are 18 years old.. you think you are such a man because of that) and wake up. It shocks me that I actually seem older than you. It's actually pretty sad.

Take Care,
Jenny

Why I'm glad I'm not with him.
1. He lied.. so there is no trust.
2. He was a waste of my time and emotions (obviously).
3. He never did anything for ME.
4. He was so loud and embarassing.
5. I didn't care too much for his friends. I felt too awkward around them.
6. My family can't stand him now.
7. He never made time for me.
8. He was so cheap and sarcastic.
9. He doesn't have much remorse for hurting me so badly.
10. We never really had fun together without being all over each other.
11. He would never talk to my parents really.
12. He was all talk and no action. But as we see now his words and "promises" mean NOTHING

Whew I feel better. I just want to not even think about him anymore! Pain, go away. You've been here too long.




Edited 11/13/2006 10:34 pm ET by im_inovermyhead
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Registered: 04-14-2006
In reply to: im_inovermyhead
Tue, 11-14-2006 - 1:39pm
You go girlfriend!!!!!!! You sound like me venting......Its amazing how similar men are. O-well we are moving on to better things. I loved your why I am glad I am not with you. It sounds like we were dating the same guy. Best of luck. Don't stress about him, do something for yourself.
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Registered: 11-13-2006
In reply to: im_inovermyhead
Tue, 11-14-2006 - 2:35pm
You Go girl! I really am happy for you , you have realize that he was a selfish SOB
Only thinking of himself like most of them out there
I really wonder what these men really do care about other themselves?
but hey you are so much better off now that you have expressed your feelings
just don't fall for him again cause he might try to get you back if he finally relizess he loves you remember never give this guy a second chance
you have feelings too and you want someone who cares and expresses his feeling too!