We're on a RollerCoaster Ride Baby!
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| Fri, 07-14-2006 - 10:31am |
Ok, so I just wanted to put a few words out there about break-ups and the inevitable rollercoaster ride you go through when dealing with a break-up.
Some days you are doing really great, you're the strong, independent self you've always been, then some days, you're this sad, depressed, crying girl who you don't even know.
Grieving. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH! The most horrific thing I've ever been through is this break-up. It's even worse than when one of my best friends died in a car accident when I was 15.
But knowing that I will get through this and that the pain does go away (because a lot of the pain has gone away) makes it easier.
Yesterday was a bad day for me, granted it didn't get bad until later in the day, but hey isn't that how it happens? One minute you're great, thinking about some new guy you've met, and the next you're thinking about the ex, wondering if you'll ever see him again. CRAZY emotions!
As excrutiating as it all is, I know this break-up was the best thing for us. He didn't want to be in a relationship anymore, and I don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me anymore.
I don't know if we'll ever get back together, but if we do, we'll be stronger because we've had time apart and we'll know now more than ever that we do want to be together. But hey how many people who break-up really get back together and make it work? Probably not very many. And that's okay. I will find someone and I will be happy regardless. Nothing is going to scar my life.
I'm leaving tomorrow for Branson, MO for a little vacation with my family, yeah family vacation WOOHOO (sarcasm :)). It's not much, but at least I will have some time to detox and get away from it all. Change of scenery should do me some good.
Thanks to all who have sent replies to me, and I'm sure you'll be hearing more from me, but for now I'm just up to helping others through the whole break-up process.
~Amber~
P.S. Maybe there will be some HOT guys in Branson! Flirting, I think so!

Hi Amber, have fun at Branson!
I totally understand how you feel. I now know exactly what my ex is going through, we talked about it. It frustrates me to no end that I see him wasting his life, but its his life.
I know that I don't want him, at least not right now, and possibly not ever. Yet, we were chatting online yesterday and he said he is going out of the house and won't be back till tomorrow. All I could feel was sooo jealous! I know its stupid to be jealous of his life style, and he probably just meant that he will be back online tomorrow, not at home. I feel better now, but I don't want to keep wondering where he is, who he is with, and what he is doing. I try to not think about and I know better than to ask him that, but its still on my mind.
Yet, there are other days when I could care less about him and what he is doing with his life. Ah, hopefully it all passes and I know it does.
Take care and enjoy flirting!
Madina
Exactly, you know what they say, "This too shall pass". I just hope it comes sooner rather than later, but you can't control the rate at which you heal. I'm doing exceptionally well today, thank GOD! I'm back to how I was before yesterday's little bout with depression.
Don't we all worry about what our exes are doing now. I know I do. Last time I talked to him which was 2 weeks ago, he told me he had two concerts that he was going to this week, so I've been getting these little images in my head of him flirting with some girls, taking the girls home, etc.. Even though I know he's not that type of person. Ignorance is bliss though. If he is seeing some girls I don't want to know about it, that would magnify the pain tenfold.
I found out today that my best-friend's boyfriend's brother wants to ask me out. HHMMM. I don't know, I've heard he gets really serious fast, and I'm not looking for a relationship, just casual dates here and there, we'll see how that turns out. It is good to know that you have an admirer!
Just think one day in the future our exes will look back and think, "What the HELL was I thinking getting rid of her?" We are exceptional women and we deserve better.
~Amber~
Have fun! And thanks for your being up to helping others because it really does help! And your so right it is a rollercoaster ride, when you are beginning to feel better it feels great and you get so excited at having made some progress, at having had a good day, and then it all falls downhill the next day. That's been me in the last two days I feel all over the place.
Family vacation is a great way to get away from EVERYTHING so really enjoy it.
Sandy
You have very accurately put words to how I have been feeling..somedays i am so hopeful thinking that there are happy times ahead of me..other days its just hopeless and i get so angry and hateful that it impacts everyone around me..the worst thing is when I see my ex going around like everything is peachy..
i don't know what i should tell myself or how i should console myself..i haven't really talked to any of my friends or family yet about the breakup. if i do it will only be to inform them, i don't really open up to anyone much (hence the cyberventing:))
i just want to close my eyes and be on the other side of this period...
Amber
Hey I love your attitude. It is truly inspiring. I know your message doesn't mean you never have any "rough" days but it seems like you are taking a healthy and positive approach to dealing with your breakup. I think we can all learn from your post.
As far as Branson. Well they say you find the things you are looking for in the least obvious places. Interested in hearing how your trip turns out!
T. Murray
I don't know how long you and your ex have been apart but I would advice staying as far away from him as possible. If you live close to him, try to take alternate routes so you don't run into him. My ex ran away from our relationship 4 weeks ago and I haven't been close to his house or neighborhood because I don't want to see him or see that he has gone on with his life without giving his behavior any thought. It is so hard to see your ex go on as if everything is okay but I bet it will affect him down the road. I would really advice talking to family and friends about what your feeling. It does help and they are the ones you need right now to lean on for support. I just read the book "It is called a breakup because it is broken" and it mentioned to get a breakup buddy who you can console with about what you are going through. I have had many breakup buddies over the past 4 weeks and believe it or not, my dad has been my #1 breakup buddy. We talk everyday and he always ask how I am feeling that day.
Right now, with our emotions on a major roller coaster, we need someone close to us who will be there for the up days and down days.
Take Care!