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what am I doing?
| Sun, 03-16-2008 - 10:20pm |
I just broke up with a man I've been dating for four years. We were engaged, we bought a house. I thought I wanted to have children. I'm so confused. Everything just started falling apart. I've never wanted children, so why would I say that I did? Why would I honestly feel like I did? Or was I lying to myself? Anyway, even besides that issue, we were just really really incompatible. To make matters worse, I started getting a vibe from a friend of his and I started fantasizing about him CONSTANTLY. I just snapped at a woman at the grocery store for no reason. I feel like I'm walking around in a daze, and I can't bring myself to do very basic things like eat regularly or put away my laundry. I just don't feel like I'm me anymore, but I didn't feel like I was me with him either. Is any of this making sense? So, what do I do? How do I get out of this funk? I'm just so sick and tired of feeling this way, but it's like the emotion is controlling me and I can't stop it, and I can't stop fantasizing about his friend. All of this is just destroying me. How do I stop feeling so bad all of the time?

Welcome to the board illyriafred,
Sounds like you are under a lot of pressure.