what have i done??
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| Mon, 12-04-2006 - 6:27am |
i have made the biggest mistake of my life this past weekend....
i have a problem controlling my anger. i start ALOT of arguements that dont need to happen. my boyfriend of almost 2 years has been very VERY good to me. hes given me lots of chances to redeem myself...
well, this past weekend, he informed me that instead of spending friday night with me, he was going to spend it with this guy i really hate. the guy is such a loser, likes to do nothing but get drunk and puke. i figured my boyfriend would be doing the same...
so i called him and told him he had a choice to make, go to see his buddy, or stay with me... i was such a bitch . i told him not to call me or come over saturday night...so he didnt...told him it was over...
i called him up, we talked, he didnt sound like he really wanted to be with me anymore (cant blame him...) and kind of half heartidly agreed to give me one more chance.... he was to be at my place on sunday afternoon....never showed up or called...
i am so distraught i dont even know what to do with myself. i cant eat or drink anything. i can barely sleep. i cant seem to get a hold of him! ive tried his cell, his house, email, everything!
ive learned my lesson. ive never really seen it this way before. i took him for granted. he went out friday and didnt go near a bar or touch booz....i shouldve just kept my mouth shut....
i want him back. is there any chance of salvaging this relationship??i need help!

If he wanted to speak to you, he would have responded to your calls or e-mails. Since he doesn't, there's nothing you can really do other than to accept the situation. Unfortunately, it sounds like it's too late for this relationship. All you can do is take the lessons you've learned from this and vow to be a better girlfriend the next time a guy like him comes your way. You might also want to consider going to counseling at some point in order to help you learn how to better manage your anger.
I'm sorry you're going through this. I know it sucks. Just hang in there. Things will eventually get easier
Hmm, that's the problem, though.