What is wrong with me?!

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Registered: 05-07-2007
What is wrong with me?!
Tue, 05-08-2007 - 10:11am

My boyfriend of 4 years recently moved to Chicago for a job...well, I guess he's my ex-boyfriend now. Anyway, we were going to do the distance thing until we got engaged and I was going to move there! But now, he freaked out and says he doesn't know what he wants, that he can't decide, and that I'm the love of his life & he thinks of me everyday.

We've been officially broken up since Easter and the first couple of weeks were ok...I cried a lot, but didn't call, went out with friends, worked out, and honestly belived I could and would move on to someone better. The last week and a half have been complete hell. I can't sleep, I don't want to get the phone when friends call, all I want to do is call him. I feel like I lost my best friend and my soul mate....I start crying even at work!

Why is this happening now?! After 2 weeks of being ok!! I just have to tell myself that if he is my soulmate, he'll find his way back to me, right???!!!

Any advice would be wonderful...I'm so happy I found this board!