who else feels like this??

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Registered: 09-02-2007
who else feels like this??
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Sun, 09-02-2007 - 11:37pm

A little backround. broke up almost 6 months ago with first love after over 2 yrs of dating he stated he just doesnt want to be in a relationship.

we have now started speaking and saw each other for dinner 2 times. because i got all crazy from seeing him I was bad and checked his cellphone log and he is talking to his ex prbly more than he and i ever spoke.

I CANT stress enough how i shoould have listened to everyone on this board when they said STOP CONTACT i would be a lot better had i just continued no contact. so girls if u feel me on this save urself the agony and start to move on the first day u break up. heres a poem i wrote

Thoughts of you consume my mind
so much that you make me blind

There is so much life to live
but its just hard for me to forgive

You threw my heart onto the floor
you beat it till it was no more

Now I'm left here all alone
seeing this side you've never shown

I hate you for hurting me to the core
even continuing from far out the door

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Registered: 02-05-2007
Mon, 09-03-2007 - 7:11pm

Welcome to the board hrtbrken22,


Thanks for validating No Contact with your story.

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Registered: 07-14-2007
Mon, 09-03-2007 - 7:57pm

I definitely second your opinion.

I did an unavoidable pick up my things from the ex two nights ago. I asked specifically for a few things I couldn't replace at all and now I half wish I'd never had my sister pick up the things at all.. I acquired a heck of a lot of stuff I didn't want - like our pictures together and this rug I'd stayed up 3 nights in a row feverishly making before I had to move back home.

I can tell you it HURT and I cried for a long time that night. I now have the pleasure of re-playing that night in my mind every so often.

Susanna

- There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your