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A whole new life
| Fri, 10-12-2007 - 4:48pm |
I was with my exboyfriend since i was 15 1/2, i am now 19. Ive lived with him and his family for 2 years. We broke up yesterday. I guess you can say that i accepted the fact that our relationship was slowly deteriorating. But ive been in denial since our first break up in which he told me that he never wanted me to move in. I know deep down he does love me. I mean we were pratically best friends. Well after several attempted breakups i would beg him not to leave me. His family is my family, my life is there with him. My parents live 50 miles away from everyone i know. None of this probably makes sense since im in such shock still, but during our last break up he said hes held on to our relationship because he felt sorry for me. Then i was crying to him and basically having an anxiety attack, when he then yelled and told me to stop crying and to get over it. He then told me that i needed to leave. How can someone be that cruel? I developed so much, i'm in college and i just started a new job. Now i have to give up my whole life because hes so selfish. I just need help. I dont understand whats going on. How can someone be so selfish? he told me that another reason why he didnt want to be with me anymore was because hes selfish and he wants to be alone. I seriously believe in my heart that hes incapable of truly loving someone. He obviously didnt give his whole heart to me, and i was thebest girlfriend i could possibly be. He told me there was nothing wrong with me, but why throw away 3 1/2 years down the drain??

Welcome to the board beau_lis,
You will probably never understand what he's thinking, what he's feeling etc. enough to make you feel better.
You have to grieve for what might have been, for what could have been, for what you hoped would have been.
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