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| Wed, 08-15-2007 - 11:04pm |
Why cant I let go, I haven't talked to my ex in over a month, and i couldn't help myself and just called her to tell her things are going better, and that i hope school and work is going good with her... i miss her so much , even know after being broken up for over 7 months.... i still cant get rid of the feelings i have for her.... it hurts soo bad... she got so mean on the phone and said hateful things to me.... why does she do that....?
i want nothing more than to love her.... obviously after all this time, what i feel for her is love right..? or is it just i am so lonely she is the one i turn to and with her degrading me , it just hurts more and i want to make it better...?
ugh, I wish i could afford therapy, cause i would go get it.... this hurts so much i think it is affecting my health... i want nothing more than to love her, care for her, be with her, just be her friend at times, be her lover at others.... but, she has turned to hating me i guess cause we didn't rush into marriage...
she said not to tell her i love her, just call to be friends, but that hurts even more, cause i want to express how i feel... i have chosen to not call at all... that has put a stake through my heart....
i guess, to be alone is my destiny.... everyone i meet wants to get married right away without really getting to know each other...... why is that, is there something wrong with me?
i wish she was on this board so she could see how much i love her, enough to get some advice at least, i cant ask my friends.... they have foul things to say about her....
anyone to talk to that has been in my shoes would be great....

Hi brokenandtorn,
In an effort to bring you some insight, I'm going to be very blunt, k?