Why am I feeling this

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Registered: 04-02-2007
Why am I feeling this
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Mon, 09-10-2007 - 5:16pm

Short background...3 1/2 yr relationship, lived together almost 10 months came home one day and he was gone, this happened on April 3 2007. He moved to his parents town. I just received and email telling me that the dog we had, had to be put to sleep last Sat.

But this came from his new wife(who is someone he lived with a couple years before we started seeing each other, that had one child, didn't have custody of and was pregnant when he met her, and proceeded to open accounts all over town in his name before she left)The email follows.

**Ironically, as I was clearing out our email folders, I came across this email. Just wanted to let you know that as of Saturday, Jack is no longer with us. As you know Jack was getting old so Rob and I made the decision to have him put to sleep** signed xxxxx.(his last name)

I have been doing so good (or so I thought) I got some counseling, reading the boards, punching bag, reading books listed on the ivillage, have even been on a few dates, getting on with my life. It feels like Ive been punched in the gut. I totally lost it just now. I'm sad for the loss of Jack, but Anger is also there because he didn't have the balls to tell me himself, he let his wife that I knew nothing about do it. Which considering the way he left he didn't have any balls to start with.

I soooooooo want to respond to the email, but I know it wouldn't be wise. I want to call him and tell him to go to H***. Why does it hurt like this????? Why am I letting this bother me so much. Where is all that strength that I have had these past few months...

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Registered: 06-22-2006
Mon, 09-10-2007 - 5:33pm

Wel,

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Registered: 04-02-2007
Mon, 09-10-2007 - 7:47pm

Thanks Sandra, I have learned so much from these boards the short time I have been visiting them, and the amount of help and resolve it has given me has been tremendous. I would like to thank you, Sheri, Carrie, Sakura, Issytish and the some of the others on the boards and the wisdom that you share.

I know this is something I just need to work through. Doesn't stop me from wanting to go down to Dothan and pinch his head off and spit down his neck right now though :) But that is where my punching bag got its workout when I came home, and my journal. Jack was like another child to me and it just hurts. And to be told like I was....ugghh.

I wish I had a talking doll of you and some of the others to keep with me at all times and pull the string to get some of your wisdom when needed :)

Take Care and keep the wisdom coming...

Susan