You asked me what I wanted

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Registered: 12-19-2006
You asked me what I wanted
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Tue, 12-19-2006 - 12:49pm

so after my ex told me he didn't see "any potential in our relationship" a year later he still calls even though he is seeing someone else for about a year. He cheats on her with me (I am an idiot because I go to him) so I finally told him I can't settle for crumbs anymore, but really right now I want to, I want to take the crumb he will give me. He kept asking me what I wanted so here it is
I want you, you to love me and not ever hurt that you don't
I want to be over you and move on,
I want to be loved completely and unconditionally and be okay that it isn't you that will do that for me
I want to hear songs and enjoy them without thinking of you
I want you to never forget me but it not to matter to me if you do
I want to forget you
I want quit thinking about having a family with you
I want to know why it wasn't me but it not to matter that it isn't
I want to quit loving you
I want you to love me and it not to matter that you don't
I want you to want me back and it never hurt again that you don't
I want to not be devastated that you marry someone else
I want to be happy again
I want to not feel that pain in my heart when I see you and her in pictures
I want to not care about you ever again
I want you to care about me and it not matter that you don't
I want you, I want why why you didn't love me
I want it not to matter and hurt that you don't
I want to not cry everyday over you
I want to not pray at night for the phone to ring and it be you
I want to be indifferent towards you but always have a place in your heart
I want to be okay and not pained when that doesn't happen
I want to not call when I know you aren't home just to hear your voice
I want to be over you
these are the things I want

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-24-2006
Tue, 12-19-2006 - 1:14pm
Ditto!!!!