Feel like my life is over...
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|Tue, 12-10-2013 - 1:00am|
First, I want to say I am in the process of getting an appt to see a professional, but I need to hear something from someone sooner. I have never been so sad in my life. I saw an earlier post of someone getting completely cut off from answering any calls or texts from her. I am now in that same position...I am strong for 5 to 7 days, then in a desperate attempt call and or text him..no responses at all.
He is a DJ and also sings. Something I have always enjoyed is music... I can barely listen to it anymore because so many songs remind me of him. On my way to work, I have to pass the exit he lives off of (the only other route is to pass right by his apartments. Just seeing the exit sign throws me into my memories and depression, just like music.I
I am in a very dark place and see no -end in sight. Somedays I feel like.."I'm gonna be just fine". Then the nexy day I am a mess. Please help me. He is much older than me. I am 48 and he is 67. His breakup text to me basically said that he needs to be alone for a while and he needs to get his life together. That was it...after two weeks of no responses at all from him, I found out that he actually was immediateky back with his ex-girlfriend (a woman closer to his age) after he sent me the breakup text. It is so clear that I meant nothing to him, but I feel like I am borderline obsessed.
He plays out at a few places on Tues, Fridays and Saturday's. I have NEVER gone in to any of those places since he broke it off, so I am not completely crazy, but boy am I hurting really really bad. Really, I am in deep and cannot bare the thought of never seeing him again. I love him so much, at least that is what my heart is telling me. I feel like it these sad feelings will never ever go away. Please help me.