Any of the golden oldies around???

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Registered: 04-02-2003
Any of the golden oldies around???
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Sun, 09-21-2003 - 1:32pm
Just wondering if any of my old pals are around? Just wanted to check and see if everyone is doing OK.

Natural Spirit.

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Mon, 09-22-2003 - 1:58am
Good to see you, NS!! I've been thinking of you of late. How are things going with you these days?

Well, I still need to be packing so I've not been around much. We pick up the truck tomorrow and haul out Wednesday for new territory!

~Chris~

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Mon, 09-22-2003 - 4:25pm
Hello Chris,

Glad to hear from you! Ain't moving a *itch?! Been there done that (still have boxes laying around from the last move the beginng of the month). I am doing really good, now. But embroiled in sorting through many twisted evil webs of legal entanglements. Whew!!! But, in a way I guess I signed on for this.

Nearing the end of it, thankfully, the pieces are all starting to fall together rather nicely. So it seems. It is amazing what you can discover once you have committed so many small pieces of seemingly unrelated information together in a timeline. I found it extremely illuminating. I really must thank the person that recommended that to me.

About the move, you know it really does help to get a change of scenery sometimes. Breaks some of those emotional cues (and gets rid of some physical things that impact negatively on one's health and spirit). Unfortunately, a lot will have to wait till the day I can afford to buy (or preferably build) my own home.

Anyway, not a lot of computer time these days. My computer is not hooked up at home and the library is not always an option.

Good luck with your move!

Natural Spirit.

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Thu, 10-09-2003 - 9:18pm
Hi Spirit! Came here tonight looking for an old friend and saw your post :) I guess many of us old timers have moved on... hopefully, to a happier existance and past the pain that we all shared.

Good to hear you're doing well... I'm still saving the email you sent me 2 years ago! It's a good refresher whenever I need a swift kick! lol

Sherry

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Thu, 10-16-2003 - 11:06pm
Hi Sherry,

Sorry I haven't been on the board in a while so I didn't see your post till now.

I remember we traded quite a few posts back there... I don't remember any specific emails... anything in particular jump out at you? I am glad if my words were (are) able to help you out. How are you doing anyway? Still maintaining NC?

It is a tough battle getting past these affairs... especially when you feel like a particular one has been one of your very dearest friends. Despite the length of time it has been for me I still have my moments... sad to say. I'll run the whole gammit of feelings for him. But it doesn't last nearly as long as before. In the end, the dichotomy is still prevalent. And as much as part of me wants nothing more than to believe that he is the wonderful man that I believed that I fell in love with... there is still much confusion. My gut believes in him totally... but I can't be certain if my gut has been blinded by my heart. Sometimes I just can't BEAR it... other times I wonder if it is kind of a silent partner to my progression through this life lesson.

I know that there are powers listening to my silent (or not so silent prayers). I just hope that they are the benevolent kind... even more I hope that they know when I am at the end of my rope and ready to bungee jump with too long a cord :) Sometimes I feel really afraid. Other times I am reinvigorated... and ready to take on the world. I guess I am just as capable of compartmentalizing as any guy is accused of being.

Things are simply not clear enough for me... and I guess at this point I wonder if they will ever be clear. I need more information... but probably won't get the help that I feel I need... unfortunately (fortunately) I am beginning to become resolved to this. Just trying to find the strength within myself...

The song "Torn" really comes to mind at times... I am out of faith... BUT... it doesn't last forever... Who knows?

One of my favourite Dan Hill songs... "Hold on":

Still you have to hold on to what you believe in... hold on don't let it fade... still you've got to be strong, find yourself a reason... you've got to hold onto yourself or else you'll fade...

Kind of sums it up for me... stubborn Tiger to the hilt. Go figure... (I am still figuring...)

Natural Spirit.