1 MONTH NC
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| Tue, 01-12-2010 - 8:31pm |
Hello,
Sorry for being AWOL on this board. Sort of needed to deal with these emotions on my own. I want to post a follow up with everyone that today is one month (5 weeks, 33 days) of NC with xAP. It is exactly 1 week since I looked on his myspace page.
To be honest, things are not getting better...if anything, I'm starting to miss him more and feel more lonely. How is this possible? I should despise him for what he's done to me, and I do! But because the only good parts of our affair was when we used to work together, I'm reminded of him constantly when I'm at work.
He hasn't called me for a week on my cell phone, however, he did call me blocked last night at work. I answered but no one responded. I do not get this... why call me blocked and when I answer not say a word? Does he just want to hear my voice? WTF?
Well, I will go read everyone's else's posts and try to be supportive. Sorry again for being AWOL. I have lots of catching up to do!
btw...what should I change my screen name to?
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."


hey lost,
Gonna start off by saying, congrats on no contact with exAP for over a month and good that you have let go of looking at the myspace page. I will post more later, I have to tend to a lil one, sorry I do not have time to post more right now. I will tho, promise.
In the meantime, hang in there, know your worth, do not these hard days throw you off...you have come too far.
Yeah!!!!!! Congrats!
Go Lost! Go Lost! Go Lost!
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Even guys that are jerks are usually not bad all the time. As time goes on, we tend to remember more of the good times then the bad. It’s human nature. Give yourself sometime to grieve the loss.
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.