1 wk.....NC.....it's hard

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Registered: 10-08-2009
1 wk.....NC.....it's hard
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Fri, 11-20-2009 - 7:12pm

Well, it's been 1 wk. of NC w/ AP. I'll admit I'm a little sad and unhappy. I do think about what we've done and if he's with someone else. Sorry, but I do. I know that this insanity has to end and I have to "take off the blinders" and see this for what it really is. I really do want to call him and ask him for a "one more time" but I know that's not going to help me. Every time I think of him, I try to remember how he treated me....never returning my calls, never returning my texts, telling me if I wanted to give him oral I could but "hurry up" because he had to go somewhere. He never respected me as a person. As a result of that, somewhere along the way I lost respect for myself. I never intended too....

I'm glad I found this board. Alot of the ladies on here are an inspiration to me. The Healing Library really helps.....read alot of helpful posts.

That's my update so far......

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Registered: 02-28-2009
Fri, 11-20-2009 - 7:16pm
Has it been a week? I thought you posted just a couple of days ago about several conversations you and your XAP had. Has it been a week NC or a week that you haven't seen him? If I am wrong I apologize. I guess I am just a little confused.

 

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Registered: 10-08-2009
Fri, 11-20-2009 - 9:38pm
Well....let me clarify....1 wk. since we talked on the phone. I did see him the other night when he came to pick up his toddler son, (I watch his son 2-3x a week remember) but hubby was home so obviously we didn't talk. I know what you're gonna say....don't watch his son anymore. That's going to end in the spring anyway. (They won't need me to watch him after that) BUT....I still say it's NC because we're not talking anymore about the A and we're never alone.
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Registered: 02-28-2009
Sat, 11-21-2009 - 2:32pm
I don't mean to not sound supportive but it sounds as if you are only NC because of the timing. Are you wanting out of you A? I only ask because I noticed your post a few days ago about contact with him and then you posted on MAS after that.